Inside the New Age Nightmare

Randall Baer’s conversion



Randall Baer tells us how he entered the New Age Movement, the many occult techniques and practices he did because he thought to find the truth through them, and how the Lord saved him. A fascinating testimony that every New Ager should read carefully in order to understand how this Movement is a device of Satan to keep people far from the truth that is in Jesus Christ. A testimony that is very useful to Christians to expose the various works of the devil existing in the New Age.



Chapter one



Now I’d like to tell you exactly how a young man or young woman in high school, college, or post-college can become involved in the New Age Movement as they start to branch out into the world around them and explore new directions of adventure, self-development, and fulfillment. Perhaps in the reading of this story parents might be apprised of some of the strategies that the adversary uses through the glittery New Age temptations he dangles in front of young adults, and so be better forearmed to provide preventative and intervening counsel.

As well, I pray that more than a few young adults might read this story and realize the very real dangers that lay behind the oftentimes harmless-looking exteriors of so many New Age phe­nomena, so that they may never dabble or explore in these Satanic webs of ensnarement, and may always hold fast to the safety and victory of the Christian faith.

My own journey leading into the New Age and rising to heights of leadership is a classic portrait of spiritual seduction. Seeking after truth, I found only masterful counterfeits disguised as the truth. Yearning for inner fulfillment and peace, I found only glittering fragments and pieces that even­tually would crumble to dust. So deep did the seduction lead that the bizarre became accepted as the norm, fantastical lies saturated my mind, and Satan’s demons masqueraded as my guid­ing angels of light.

Most people involved in the New Age Movement today are so deceived by Satan’s lies that they have absolutely no idea of the underlying sinister dangers. Personally, when I was a New Ager, such a notion would have appeared to me as patently outrageous. I thank Jesus Christ that He delivered me from the New Age brainwashing that blinds a person to the horrors that lurk be­neath the surface of the New Age.

After the Lord saved me from the counterfeits and lies that held me in glittery bondage, I saw the pattern of Satan’s ever-so-cunning hand in pulling off an incredibly elaborate deception for 15 years of my life. In unraveling the thread of seduction woven into my life as a New Ager, I came to see Satan’s wiles, strategies, and ‘tricks of the trade’. I was aghast at his expert craftiness.

While this is so absolutely clear to me today in the Light of Jesus, as a New Ager who sincerely believed that he had found the truth, I was totally oblivious to the deception being perpetrated on me. When the eternal truth of the Lord seems to a New Ager to be utterly false, and the false­ness of the New Age seems to be absolutely true, therein lies an intricate portrait of seduction. By sharing the portrait of how Satan seduced me, I sincerely hope that the tempting lies and clever shams of the New Age are laid bare and that it is shown clearly for the horrific abomination that it is.


An all-American Upbringing


Like many New Agers, I was brought up in a middle-to-upper middle-class home. Both parents were trained professionals – my father was a medical doctor and my mother a nurse. Family life was based on Christian morals, the Protestant work ethic, and an emphasis on education.

My father was a Navy doctor and, as a result, my roots were turned up every three to four years. This had advantages in exposing me to many types of people and situations. But I was a shy and introverted child who had difficulty adjusting to new schools, new sets of friends, and new neighborhoods.

Basically I was a good and obedient boy. Rarely did I venture into any serious transgressions, as my cautious nature prevented me from delving too far into ‘bad boy’ territory. Cub Scout and Boy Scout involvements were a constant thread of experience. And, being an industrious and goal-oriented boy, I achieved much success in Scouting and top grades in school.

I was following a model all-American boyhood track.

In early teen years my inquisitive mind started to become interested in religion. I started to feel an emptiness inside and a hunger for truth. At home, we rarely discussed religious issues, mostly leaving such topics to be covered at Sunday school and church. However, I never really felt any powerful experiences or encounters with Jesus, and my questions only multiplied as more and more doubts arose.

In pursuing a ‘God and Country’ Scouting award, I became friends with a Navy chaplain, whom I felt could guide me toward truth. One day I approached my chaplain friend with great expectations of real dialogue and asked: ‘Can we talk about why some people are agnostics and atheists? I’d really like to know God, but I have so many doubts’. His bewildered and somewhat irritated look instantly revealed to me that he was not receptive to my questions of doubt. ‘Perhaps some other time, but not now, Randall. You are too young’, he replied.

My frustrations began to increase. I had to find ‘truth’.

During the same time, I attended an adult Bible study and was the only teenager there. I was 14. One day I mustered up the courage and blurted out: ‘Why should I believe in God? Why should I read the Bible? Why should I attend church?’

The group sat in mute silence. I had asked forbidden questions and apparently no one there wanted to broach the subject because my questions were completely ignored.


Teenage Disillusionment and Exotic Explorations


Something snapped in me. I no longer wanted to attend what I perceived as sterile and lifeless church services and study groups. I suddenly knew that what I was searching for wasn’t there. In the years ahead, I would hear many New Agers telling a similar story. I started going to various libraries searching for truth on my own. The realm of books; I felt, would open up the doors to new horizons.

The TV show ‘Kung Fu’ caught my attention and, over a period of time, I became gripped by the allures of mysticism and exotic superhuman powers. Here were Eastern masters who had profound answers to the questions burning in my mind – ‘What is God?’, ‘Who am I?’, ‘Where do you find truth?’ The hero image of Quai Chang Caine vividly demonstrated how to attain inner peace, oneness with the universe, and supernatural control over oneself and life’s circumstances.

On regular trips to a bookstore in a neighborhood shopping mall, I found many books in the ‘Religion/Philosophy’ and ‘Occult’ sections on Eastern religious philosophy and ‘how to’ books on Hatha Yoga and meditation. In the following weeks and months, I devoured the exotic ‘All is Oneness’ philosophies, and taught myself how to perform yoga and meditation. This was the beginning of my New Age walk, and I had just turned 15.

I always had a close relationship with my mother and I could tell that she was alarmed. She gave me a serious warning to be very careful in my non-Christian pursuits. Though they voiced their serious concerns, neither of my parents forced me to stop my search. It was probably just a teenage ‘phase’ that would be outgrown in time.

I kept up a good outward appearance. Only my closest circle of four high school buddies knew some of the details of my consuming search. At the time I was at the top 2 percent of my high school class, a member of National Honor Society, and enjoying successes in varsity tennis.


A powerful ally helps me find the ‘force’


During this time, I found another powerful ally on my truth-seeking path - marijuana – and it opened up a whole new world. Marijuana affects different people in different ways. For me, it would help ‘expand’ my mind into many mystical types of ‘higher consciousness’. [1]

One evening I felt that I had an encounter with what I thought was ‘God’. While slowly inhaling the marijuana, all of a sudden the surrounding room disappeared. I found myself floating in the cosmos beyond all sense of time. The boundaries of my body and sense of identity miraculously expanded as I became the ‘light’ and the ‘light’ became me. Feeling like I was effortlessly soaring through infinity, I believed that I had met ‘god’ and was one with the universe. This was what the Eastern religious philosophies were talking about – pure oneness and enlightenment.

How I dreaded it when the marijuana effects started to wear off, having to return to tiny planet Earth. In the days afterwards, my inner anguish and pain returned, but now I felt that I had found the true door to ultimate truth. I had hope.

My path branched out even more as my French teacher, whom I felt was ‘cool and progressive’, formed a small group that met before school to study the works of Napoleon Hill, author of the best-selling books, Think and Grow Rich and Grow Rich! With Peace of Mind. Each of us set goals and learned the techniques for applying a ‘Positive Mental Attitude’ to create whatever we desired in our lives. Little did I know then that Hill’s philosophy was revealed by a ‘Council of 33 Masters’ that spoke to him via mental telepathy to reveal the secrets of universal success. [2]


Back-to-Nature through College


Upon graduation from high school I went to a highly respected liberal arts college near Minneapolis, Minnesota. During the first two years  at this demanding academic college I chose classes that would help me understand mankind and his purpose for existence. Classes in anthropology, sociology, introductory religion, art, and biology further whetted my appetite to find the meaning of life. While studying other cultures from around the world, I became intrigued with primal cultures, American Indians, pantheistic religious views, and ‘getting back to nature’.

My searching mind became engrossed in seeing ‘Nature’ as the source of peace and truth. Somehow by mystically penetrating to the essence of Nature and becoming ‘one’ with it, I felt that my questions and yearnings would be answered. It seemed to me that the Eastern mystics and primal cultures, like some of the more mystically oriented American Indian tribes, were the ones who had kept close to their roots in Nature.

I started to see Western culture as an artificial, ‘plastic’ society that was divorced and separated from the rhythms of Nature, and was therefore increasingly sterile and lifeless.

The Transcendentalist teachings of Thoreau and Wordsworth became a major inspiration. Wordsworth wrote: ‘Come forth into the light of things, let Nature be your teacher’. This became the driving theme of my search.

At the same time, I continued to smoke marijuana regularly, late at night after studies were finished. Still quite shy and insecure, I had a few friends, but none to whom I really revealed the depths of my inner search. The roof top of the dorm became a sort of late-night sanctuary. Smoking a joint, I would commonly have mystical and out-of-body experiences that would propel my awareness into ‘higher states of consciousness’ where I would receive what I thought were profound cosmic insights that reinforced my developing New Age philosophy.

Little did I know that the seducers of Satan were laying out a red carpet of progressive ensnarement. As I took each step, a web of darkness was progressively being woven around me, weaving a spell of delusion and bondage.

Toward the end of my sophomore year, my intense yearning for a chance to ‘get back to nature’ actually materialized. I had been applying Napoleon Hill’s ‘Positive Mental Attitude’ techniques fervently toward finding such an opportunity. This was a dream come true – an opportunity to be an assistant in a field biology project carried out in isolated national forest areas of northern Wisconsin. In this remote area, I was to assist a husband-and-wife team doing field studies of fishers, a type of animal in the weasel family.

Ah, now I could divorce myself from sterile, artificial Western culture and immerse myself in the eternal peace and supreme serenity of Nature.

During this time, after a half-day of checking traps and other duties, I was often free to read books on religion and explore marijuana-induced euphoria.

Yet a nagging problem kept re-surfacing day after day. I would mentally understand the mystical religious philosophy and even experience some of it on drugs, but waking up the next morning I would still have a strong sense of inner pain, estrangement, and anguish. I felt certain that I was on the right track to spiritual enlightenment and freedom from inner pain, but it seemed that I always ended up exactly where I started.

Perhaps I should have seen that what was artificial here was the direction my life was taking, but I didn’t. In fact, every new drug experience and new philosophy book seemed to re-confirm that I was on the right track, and would find my answers if only I would persevere.

Because of the extreme isolation of the situation and my retreat into my own little mystical world, my work suffered and I experienced my first academic failure. This uncharacteristic failure should have been a red flag signalling that something was going wrong, but I ignored it and was determined to take a next major step – LSD and other hallucinogenic drugs.


Psychedelic journeys to the beyond


During the next year as a college junior, I had a chance to fulfill this desire. I moved into a college-sponsored ‘Asian studies special interest house’, a collection of 16 people who had strong interests in Oriental culture and religions. Here I found a strong support group of people very similar to myself in many ways, all of whom were searching for truth and fulfillment by a wide variety of Eastern and psychedelic avenues. We even had a designated meditation room with a blue light to signify that everyone in the house should remain perfectly silent when someone was meditating. To others on campus, our group had a mystical mystique, which we enjoyed.

Most all of us were achievers from upper-middle-class backgrounds, and very inquisitive and explorative in these strange vistas of exotic spirituality.

Being cautious by nature, I spent lots of time in the library reading scholarly books on the effects of psychedelics, and how they helped sometimes in psychological healing (which I desperately wanted) and how they paralleled the mystical experiences of Eastern religions. I knew that this was the ‘big leagues’.

The books and teachings of former Harvard professors Richard Alpert (later Ram Dass), Timothy Leary, Aldous Huxley, Dr. John Lilly, and others promoting variations on the psychedelic gospel of ‘turn on, tune in, and drop out’ reverberated through my fascinated mind. I even was able to write a few papers on this research for a couple of religion classes I was taking. (I was by this time majoring in Religious Studies). Talk about having your cake and eating it too.

Now I was ready to take the next step into the big league hallucinogens. From all that I had read, I couldn’t wait.

A succession of experiences with LSD, mescaline, peyote buttons, psilocybin mushrooms, and hashish with others in my Asian studies house ‘blew my mind’. Catapulted into extraordinary dimensions beyond my wildest dreams, I rapturously explored what I felt were the indescribable ‘heavens’ of the supernatural realms. Incredible vistas of dazzling rainbow lights, beings of pure energy, and mind-expanding transformations unfolded with each new experience. I felt that the psychedelics afforded me access to the very essence of Nature and the cosmos. Here, I thought, I was privileged to know the innermost secrets of the universe known only to mystics, saints, and psychedelic voyagers.

Due to the overwhelming power of these drugs, it sometimes would take an entire day to ‘trip’ and then another day to fully come down and reorient to the ‘3-D earth-plane’, as well as to try to come to grips with these radically new experiences. When I would read some of the books in the college courses I was taking on Hinduism, Taoism, Buddhism, Yoga, and Western mystics, time after time my psychedelic experiences matched precisely with these traditions. Being a cautious sort, I had to consider the possibility that these ‘trips’ were simply imaginary flights of fantasy or merely wild, cosmic, comic-book adventures concocted in my own mind. However, with the intellectual confirmation of Eastern scriptures and Western mystical writings, I felt that I was most certainly on the right track.

My experiences with the ‘mind-blowing’ hallucinogens are really quite typical of a great majority of New Agers. The psychedelic doorway flashing the seductive neon sign – ‘Gateway to Nirvana: Instant Enlightenment’ – has been (and continues to be) a major entry point into seeing reality the ‘New Age’ way for millions of truth-seeking pilgrims. What I didn’t realize then was that these drugs were blowing open ‘holes’ in my mind that allowed demonic enchanters to further ensnare and brainwash my mind with glamorous psychedelic frauds.

Yet, at the same time, after coming down from psychedelic sessions I still felt fragmented inside. The inner anguish and hollowness were blotted out for a while but always returned after a time. I rationalized that I was a typical product of neurotic Western society. I figured that it would take me many years to work out of all the psychological knots and the sense of alienation that I inherited from a ‘plastic’ and superficial Western culture.

But true enlightenment, according to Eastern religions, went far beyond just psychological balance and well-being. It is a much longer journey of spiritual realization built up over thousands and thousands of reincarnated lifetimes. With psychedelics, I thought that I had seen the mountaintop of spiritual enlightenment and communed with ‘god’ there. Now I felt that the long task of hiking up the mountain was my lifelong direction and goal.

A few years later, though, I had an LSD experience that should have warned me of the deceptions that I had embraced. Shortly after gliding up a crescendo into the peak of the LSD ‘high’, an overwhelmingly powerful demon-spirit took possession of me. I was no longer in control of myself and this demonic force took over the reins. While part of me watched helplessly, the demon-sorcerer cast a number of powerful spells and gave me visions of hideous darkness. After several hours of tremendous inner torture on this ‘bad trip’, the demon ‘blew my circuits’ and left me lying like a rag doll. I could not speak for two entire days, and the psychological damage took six months to heal.

In retrospect, I see that this gruesome experience should have been a sign to go no further on the New Age path. However, I made a decision that was only partly right – from that point forward, I vowed to myself never again to take any form of hallucinogenic drug, including marijuana. My goal now was to achieve personal healing and spiritual enlightenment by only ‘natural’ methods. Thus, my New Age pilgrimage continued as I abandoned the psychedelic door while hundreds of other doors lay open for the experimenting.


Buddhist chanting charms


Within my college Asian studies house there were people experimenting in all kinds of spiritual paths. Being inquisitive, I tried several of them and had some interesting experiences.

A roommate and close friend really caught on fire with the practices of a Buddhist sect, named Nichiren Soshu Buddhism. He seemed really to grow past some personality flaws and sometimes even seemed to have a glow about him. I also was taking a religion course at the time called ‘Masters, Gurus, and New Religions’. For a final paper and verbal report we were to investigate some type of unorthodox spiritual group. Figuring to kill two birds with one stone, I started to attend group meetings with my roommate every week in Minneapolis. The group would all be on bended knees, chanting to a sacred scroll in front of the room. The chants were from an Eastern scripture called the ‘Lotus Sutra’. There was a short, easy-to-learn chant which was the main focus of the religion.

I was instructed to chant this phrase for 30-60 minutes every day, and see if my life changed in any way. I did so and, to my great wonderment, I experienced a three-week time period of the most incredible luck and good fortune I can ever recall. It was absolutely uncanny. It was as though I had the ‘Midas touch’ and everything I touched turned to gold. Money, amazing coincidences, and unworldly good fortune unfolded in my life like a royal red carpet. Here was power and tangible prosperity.

After a few weeks, though, the ‘Midas touch’ that many other members of this sect also had experienced wore off. A couple of months later, having had my fill of this portion of the spiritual alternative menu, I completed a college paper on this organization, discontinued the practices, and whetted my appetite for more spiritual adventures.


Far-Out mind control


A little later, while on summer break between junior and senior college years, I saw a free introductory lecture on ‘Silva Mind Control’ advertised in the local newspaper. I had been fascinatingly absorbing the writings of ‘Seth’ at the time. Seth is a famous spirit channeled through the trance-medium Jane Roberts [3]. This spirit’s writings intellectually outlined many of the psychedelic vistas that I previously had experienced, and showed how they relate to developing all sorts of higher psychic powers. This is exactly what Silva Mind Control promised to teach in a practical, step-by-step manner.

In a seminar taught over the span of two weekends, I learned an amazing array of mind power techniques for doing things like: acquiring inner spirit guides, intuitively diagnosing the health problems of any stranger, dream control, ‘mind-over-matter’ techniques, psychic powers, using thought-power to control reality, trance-induction methods, and much more.

I tried some of these practices and they really seemed to work. Dreams could be controlled; psychic insights into people sometimes proved accurate; even clouds in the sky apparently could be influenced with mind-power. Again, like the Buddhist chanting, events in my life took a decidedly ‘golden’ turn. I did not realize until many years later that Satan often gives apparently wonderful ‘gifts’ when a person becomes involved with the New Age. With every gift received, the New Age practices seem to be validated as being true and positive. However, also, with each gift received, the New Age ‘hook’ is set deeper and deeper inside the person.

So it was with me. While every indication told me that I was on the path of truth and fulfillment, an elaborate seduction really was beginning to overtake me.

One of the most intriguing practices taught by Silva Mind Control (today called the Silva Method) is the creation of an ‘inner retreat’ or ‘inner sanctuary’. After going through an extended step-by-step trance induction technique, we were told by the instructor to imagine ourselves to be in a house or dwelling of our own design. It could be anything we wanted, anywhere we wanted.

While many in the class imagined various types of idyllic wilderness retreats, I thought it would be interesting to visualize a high-tech lounge-and-laboratory on the ocean bottom, accessible via a luxury submarine. In my case, as the trance-induction technique deepened the trance, I would imagine myself in the submarine going deeper and deeper, deeper and deeper into the ocean depths. We were instructed to create an easy chair with every comfort feature we would imagine. On the right arm of the chair there was to be a control panel with switches that regulated various functions. In front of the chair we visualized a large screen, upon which to project various thoughts and desires that we wanted to create in our lives.

Extensive instructions guided us in creating every detail and exploring every aspect of our inner ‘home away from home’. After many hours of repeatedly going through this process, the inner sanctuary actually started to take on a type of reality of its own.

The businessmen, housewives, professionals, policemen, and college students in the class started to have the distinct sensation of the ‘inner reality’ taking on an eerily ‘real’ status. We felt like astronauts of the ‘inner realms of higher consciousness’. Any time we wanted to apply mind-power to create reality in the outer, physical world all we needed to do was to go to the inner sanctuary and vividly visualize our desire on the wraparound screen in front of the control panel chair.

This may seem fanciful, but 7-million people have taken this course, a goodly portion of them businessmen and professionals, and many have reported that they have remarkable results. In fact, there’s a money back guarantee if a person is not able to exhibit certain intuitive powers by the end of the course.

Culminating this entire sequence, we were guided to go once again into our respective inner retreats and, after going through certain techniques, to invite or visualize one or more ‘inner counsellors’. These counsellors could be in any shape or form, from the mundane to the bizarre, whatever we could think of; or in some cases, they simply materialized in front of one’s awareness.

These ‘spirit guides’ were said to have access to tremendous amounts of wisdom and knowledge which they would dispense to us upon request. They were to be regarded as friends and confidants who benevolently would guide us through life in a successful and prosperous way.

The instructor stated that he had a council of nine counsellors; some of them being recognized celebrities like Einstein and Johnny Carson.

In my own experience, two guides suddenly materialized before my mind’s eye. One was a tall, strong, wise-looking American Indian man and the other was a strikingly beautiful American Indian woman. After becoming used to the idea, the group was guided to acquaint themselves with their respective guides and to start asking questions. Most people in the group later shared that the inner counsellors seemed to take on a vivid reality and that their dialogue seemed to have proven somewhat fruitful.

What I didn’t realize at the time was that everything in Silva Mind Control was based on occult philosophy. The occult was simply repackaged in a de-religion-ised, Westernized format that would be acceptable and even appealing to middle-class America. The inner counsellors are a type of biblically forbidden practice of ‘acquiring familiar spirits’; that is, inviting demons disguised as spirit-friends into one’s life.


The development of an all-American yogi [4]


Shortly after beginning my senior year in college, I made a decision to take a year and a half leave-of-absence. While doing quite well academically, my usual enthusiasm for college studies was wanting, as I was cutting corners and doing minimal work. At the same time, for all the advanced New Age classes I was attending and all the exalted spiritual experiences that were happening, inwardly, there was an alarming psychological deterioration taking place.

Greater degrees of inner alienation and anguish were building up to an intolerable degree. I always have been rather shy and quiet by nature, but now it became almost impossible to hold a conversation even with close friends. Something was fragmenting inside and I felt a desperate need for help.

During this time, I met a highly intelligent sophomore who was involved deeply in similar pursuits, and it was clear even to me that he had become quite psychologically unhinged. I went to a professor in the religion department who taught a lot of the Eastern religion courses I had taken. He had a mystique about him and was highly respected. He even had been college president for a time. Rumors among some students and graffiti in the inter-dorm tunnels speculated that he was a ‘bodhisattva’ (an enlightened one). Unfortunately, his schedule was swamped.

I decided to take time off from college to go to some yoga retreats (also called ‘ashrams’). Here, I knew from extensive reading, were places often removed from Western society out in the country where I intensively could use advanced yoga practices to heal myself. In effect, I regarded these ashrams as ‘spiritual hospitals’.

After spending a couple of months painting houses to raise money (my parents would fund a college education but not this kind of thing), I drove from Texas to California. My eventual destination was a well-known and respected Yoga center, under the leadership of a famous Swami.

First, though, the Swami was holding a weekend seminar on ‘Superconscious Living’ in San Francisco, which I wanted to attend. This was my first real exposure to the Yoga subculture. Meditation beads, astrological arm bangles, people in white or orange outfits, sitars, pictures of Yoga masters, and people in pretzel poses during breaks filled my mind with excitement at delving into new and exotic lands and peoples.

In the midst of the weekend, I happened to be browsing through the Yoga paraphernalia on sale, and came upon a completely compelling drawing of a Yoga master named Babaji. I had read of this mysterious high master in the classic book, Autobiography of a Yogi, by the well-known Eastern guru, Paramahansa Yogananda. Babaji is said to have resided in the remotest regions of the Himalayas for over 2,000 continuous years, in a 20-year-old body. A force about the picture drew my attention magnetically.

Mesmerized by the power and the strange feeling of familiarity that seemed to emanate from it, I immediately bought a copy and started to meditate on it at various times during the weekend. I felt that I was receiving a spiritual ‘call’ from this ‘high Yoga master’ to be his disciple. Even though my rational mind wanted to be cautious and reserved about this, the impact of what I was feeling in deep inner levels gave me a certainty that this was what I had been yearning for.

At the very end of the weekend seminar, the Swami stood at the exit while every one of the 300 attendees lined up to receive a ‘divine glance’ from him. As I drew nearer, I noticed that the people receiving the divine glance became limp and relaxed all of a sudden, and then a couple of moments later went away with a wide smile on their faces. When I stood face-to-face with the Swami, his eyes were completely absorbing. It was as if I was suspended in time, totally embraced by serene eyes that connected to a universal power beyond time and space. Then, in a flash, I was back within myself and needing to focus on moving my physical body away from the line. I found that I, too, had a wide, relaxed smile and felt warm and blissful inside. This, for me, was the final confirmation that I had found what I was looking for and that at the Yoga retreat I would find more answers and be healed of my psychological afflictions.

Little did I know then that I had fallen for one of Satan’s oldest tricks – the use of guru-figures as demonic puppets through which to transmit blissful forces that seduce even as they veil the consuming face of darkness behind it all. I had walked right into a web of darkness that appeared as a luminous rainbow of divine promise.

With excited anticipation, I drove for an hour and a half north-east of San Francisco to the rural area where the Yoga community sits on several hundred acres in the rolling foothills of the Sierra Nevada Mountains. There I saw many large domed buildings, tepees scattered all about, and scores of busy people attending to their tasks. I was there on a work/study program. Half the day I was to be an apprentice in the village’s organic gardens. During the other times I would attend classes in their Yoga Teachers’ Training Program, do extensive meditation and Hatha Yoga, and have fellowship with all the yogis around.

The people there were clean, friendly, and helpful. They had their own version of the Ten Commandments – ‘Yamas and Niyamas’ (the five do’s and the five don’ts). Drugs, alcohol, extramarital sex, etc., were expressly forbidden. Days were very structured and disciplined, from 5 A.M. to 10 P.M. A Yoga church service was held for the whole community of 200-300 on Sundays. Everyone was vegetarian, with some being fruitarian (fruits only), and some aspired to breatharianism (no food, air only). (Though I heard much talk about breatharianism in many circles of the New Age, I never did find anyone who actually could pull it off.)

The rigor and discipline of the daily routine helped my own personal healing and stabilizing process to some degree, though not as much as I had wanted. The yoga system prides itself on being a ‘science of higher consciousness’ – the idea that by applying certain cause and effect Yoga practices through thousands of lifetimes a person eventually would create his own wholeness and ultimate salvation. In such a system, I realized that it might be a long, long time before I attained inner healing and everlasting peace. It wasn’t very good news.


Pocono bound


After four months my money ran out and so I went back home to Texas. After a few months of housepainting, I was keen to move on to my next spiritual adventure. The heading was eastward this time.

Destination: another well-known Yoga community situated in the Pocono Mountains of Pennsylvania.

A huge former monastery in rural backcountry, this serene setting was overseen by the guru of the entire national organization. This Swami had achieved a certain amount of renown in some scientific circles when he proved, at the highly respected Menninger Foundation, that he has certain mind-over-matter abilities. I quickly found a mystique, involving thousands of alleged miracles and mystical marvels, permeating the community. All bowed to their glorious and adored guru, who acted as a god-on-Earth, benevolently bestowing wisdom, gifts, miracles, and salvation to all his supplicants.

Again, as at the previous Yoga community, the lifestyle was regimented, orderly, clean, and in accordance with the five do’s and five don’ts. Though I now look back on these people as being deluded by a messianic pretender, their dedication, organization, sincerity, and kindness made for a pleasant stay.

The better part of every day was a routine of early morning group meditation and devotions, followed by breakfast and morning studies. Afterwards, there were a couple hours work, lunch, and then afternoon studies and group meditations. Evenings sometimes had planned activities and classes. Otherwise we were on our own and had fellowship or retired to our individual rooms for study and more meditation.

Emphasis in this community was on ‘detached self-observation’ – a kind of self-induced psychological splitting of the inner self into a totally detached observer and the rest of the self who thought, felt, and acted. To the detached observer part of oneself, it doesn’t matter what the ‘lower self’ is doing or experiencing – the observer remains totally non-involved and unconcerned.

The observer simply watches and goes ‘Hmm, that’s interesting’ to everything, no matter if the person is experiencing a third-degree burn or smelling a flower. This kind of psychological split makes for a rather emotionless, joyless placidity. It’s somewhat like having a community of people aspiring to be like ‘Star Trek’s’ Mr. Spock.

I also experienced a Yoga initiation by one of the sub-gurus of the community. As a visitor I did not merit initiation from the Swami himself. The sub-guru was in a stage of deep meditation when I entered the room, seemingly oblivious to my presence. After a time, he called me over to sit beside him in an eerily deep voice. He positioned himself so that his mouth was several inches away from my right ear. Then he enunciated a mantra [5] directly into my ear several times. There was a peculiar penetrating quality to the sounds. It was as though they were being seeded deep within my being.

He had me vocalize the sounds myself, and informed me that this was my personal mantra that linked me to the ancient lineage of this community’s gurus. Strangely enough, I felt almost lighter-than-air walking out of the room, and experienced a continuous, extremely pleasant, blissed-out state of mind for two whole days.

Again, a demonic link was seeded within me, sugar-coated with short-term bliss and peace. My seduction was growing deeper and more complex with each new spiritual adventure. While my scrap-book was filling up, I was sinking into Satan’s gilded mire.


One last skirmish in college


Having quenched my appetite for Yoga ashrams for a while, I decided to go back to college and finish up my final two trimesters. The domain of college academia seemed now to be an alien environment, somehow irrelevant to real life and quite ‘ivory towerish’. Still, the general pursuit of knowledge and the academic study of various religions was an enjoyable interlude.

In a final senior thesis paper, reviewed by all Religion department professors, I challenged what I perceived as antiquated, out-of-touch Western religious orthodoxy and presented an eclectic alternative of psychedelically expanded Eastern mysticism and American Indian shamanism. It was ill-received (though passing), but I fully expected this. My voice of defiance in the face of what I then perceived as entrenched orthodox authority was the beginning of my future New Age activism.

I walked away from college with a B.A. in Religious Studies in one hand and Yoga meditation beads in the other. In retrospect, I can’t know if it would have made a difference but I wish one of my professors (most of whom were Christians) had taken off their objective, academic hats and sat me down and given me the simple witness of the faith in Christ that even a child can understand. In all the complexities of religious intellectualism, I totally had missed the ultimate truth.


Exploring Career Options in the New Age


My dedication to becoming professionally involved in some aspect of the New Age Movement was by now firmly established. Inwardly, I still felt incomplete and in need of much healing. Combining both deep personal need and career direction, I decided to pursue the profession of holistic medicine. Also called holistic health, this is a major branch of the New Age, one that is extremely widespread and well-developed throughout America and the rest of the world.

Looking through ads in New Age periodicals, over a hundred choices of schools and learning centers in the holistic healing arts were available. I felt that by learning how to heal myself with holistic health practices, I then could apply that knowledge to helping others heal themselves in the future.

While in the midst of sorting out choices, I received a letter from the director of the Yoga Teachers’ Training Program that I had attended in California. He said that he had received my image in meditation after asking his guru for guidance in picking a program assistant. Perceiving this to be a ‘sign from above’ and feeling privileged to be asked to such a position, I agreed. Within the month, I was on the road again to California.

The assistant teaching position proved valuable as a beginning New Age leadership experience.

In unraveling the thread of Satan’s seduction in my life, I see how he provided certain ‘signs’ that I would respond to in pointing me further down the road of well-intentioned delusion. Most every New Ager can recount a long series of uncanny ‘coincidences’ occurring in their lives, leading them further and further along the New Age path. What I see today is that the adversary plots to lead people more and more deeply into the New Age by providing ‘signs’ and ‘coincidences’, like laying a trail of cheese in front of lab mice running a maze.

After finishing the three-month program assistant stint, I saw a vision in meditation pointing me to a holistic health retreat I had been reading about. Situated on Orcas Island off the coast of Washington, this remote and storybook-beautiful island was home to a small settlement of New Agers who offered various kinds of retreats and classes.

I chose a seven-week program designed to give a person the ‘full treatment’. On a diet heavy on sprouts, wheatgrass juice and morning ‘liver cleansers’ containing liberal amounts of garlic, one’s gastro-intestinal condition certainly did get the ‘full treatment’. Soon I was introduced to a wide assortment of techniques designed to ‘break you down and then build you back up’.

One practice was to get up in the morning and quickly drink an entire gallon of heavily salted water. Why? So you immediately could regurgitate it all back out. This ‘atomic cleansing’ technique was for clearing stomach mucus out of the body. If you can imagine a bathroom full of people doing this at the same time, it’s certainly a fine way to start the morning. Even then, as a New Ager, this was a bit too much for me.

During the first afternoon’s class, our group of 16 paired off and the instructor led us through a bodywork technique supposed to ‘realign our body’s energy field’. At the end of the technique each person giving the treatment was provided with a tissue, and we were then instructed to put pressure at the very tip of the tailbone of our partner. This was not sexual in nature, but it was one heck of a way to get to know someone the first day.

Then there were the ‘jackhammer’ bodywork sessions (my term for them). Some schools of New Age bodywork [6] feel that psychological traumas also are lodged in the deep muscle tissues. Therefore, to release these traumas and restore body harmony, it becomes necessary for the practitioner to grind fists, fingers, elbows, and knees deeply into virtually every major muscle group in the body of the hapless recipient.

This is severely excruciating, to say the least. The howls, shrieks, and murderous screams that would fill the air in the community eventually became ‘normal’, though during the first few weeks the place sounded at times like a torture chamber.

Then it was MY TURN. Sometimes a couple of assistants were required to hold me down while the practitioner tried to make my calf muscles ‘one with the table’ via extreme elbow pressure. This is a series of treatments profoundly etched in my memory.

There were other less-severe practices, but these were the most memorable. Everyone in the group followed the entire regimen. Looking back, so much of this appears completely ludicrous. At the time though, everything was presented professionally, with lots of rationale behind it, and it seemed to make sense. When doubts arose in my mind, I thought: ‘Since you’ve already paid your $1,700, you might as well give it a shot’.

Several small groups of 15-20 individuals were involved in different classes at any given time at this center, and it is noteworthy to point out that many of the participants were successful professionals in a wide variety of fields, New Age and otherwise.

I later discovered that the members of this community were all disciples of yet another Indian guru, supposed to be ‘God’ in the flesh. While they did not advertise it, this was their spiritual link-up with Satan’s forces. Yet again, the guru-connection had played a guiding role in my pilgrimage into seduction.


A survival school vision quest


My next venture (after a time of recuperation from all the ‘healing’ I had experienced) veered off onto a different tangent. I have had the innermost feeling since an early age that the times in which we live today are the end times. While I had a different perspective on the end times as a New Ager than I do today as a Christian, at the time I read many prophecies foretelling severe disasters and worldwide tumult in the relatively near future. I thought it imperative to learn how to survive under adverse circumstances and to live off of nature. I also was looking for an ultimate test of my personal mettle plus a chance to undergo what American Indians call a ‘vision quest’. A survival school, based in Provo, Utah, provided a perfect opportunity to satisfy this piece of my pilgrimage puzzle.

Being as enamored with American Indian religions as I was then, I felt that my spiritual journey would not be complete without my own version of their vision quest.

This quest is a ‘rite of passage’ from boyhood to manhood, in which the young Indian boy is left alone in a sacred place to fast, do rituals, pray for a ‘vision’ of his life-purpose, and to acquire spiritual powers. In many ways it is a kind of initiation into the supernatural realms. This is a fairly popular practice in the New Age, and I felt that I would find some answers to my burning desire for finding inner peace and my life’s greater purpose.

I quickly found that this outdoor survival school was indeed a kind of ‘ultimate challenge’ that would test my personal mettle to the very limit. The first three days of the program were called Impact, and this phase certainly did make an intense impact on the 50 participants. Getting out of the bus in the remotest badlands of southern Utah, for these first few days we were allowed to have only the clothes on our back, a knife, a fork, a cup, a plastic trash bag, and a sweater. This was to be a real initiation into a real survival situation, as we had no food, no canteens, no tents.

Strenuous forced hiking for 12-14 hours per day through some of the worst badlands I have ever seen and up and down mountains quickly took its toll on some of the less fit of the group. Dehydration, vomiting, exhaustion, and severe blisters, among other side effects, afflicted some, but we still had to move on. There was no food to be gathered from the badlands, and water was extremely scarce. At times we would have to brush away the layers of scum covering a small pocket of water in the sandstone. Most of us were so desperately parched that we drank such water thankfully.

On the last day of the three-day Impact phase, a 28-day program, we hiked well into the night and still had a long way to go to reach our destination. There was a stream at our destination, so we had a lot of motivation to get there. Having had no food and little water for three days under such extreme conditions, most all of us were walking wrecks.

I still was using this situation as a vision quest, and had been meditating whenever possible and calling out to the spirits of the Indians for a vision. Then, something very unusual happened. Instead of feeling severely exhausted and beleaguered like the others, I became filled with a power that completely erased all fatigue and made my steps easy and light.

When we reached the destination around 2 A.M., half the group was near a state of total collapse. Numerous people were vomiting, one was having real medical problems, and most simply drank some water and dropped asleep where they knelt. Still feeling this extraordinary energy surge, I helped some of those in need for a time. After everyone had gone to sleep, I was so energized that sleep was impossible, so I sat down in the Yoga lotus position to ride the energy out in a state of meditation. After a couple of minutes, I felt like the ‘lid’ of my mind was opened and my awareness soared into the starry heights.

This was a mystical experience of ‘cosmic consciousness’ like none I’d ever had before. I saw in my expanded mind’s eye a hawk spirit, that seemed to span the entire galaxy, come to alight over me. For what felt like hours I heard hawk cries that seemed to reverberate through every atom of my expanded consciousness. I had received my vision, and was ecstatic.

Waking up in the morning after two hours’ sleep, I felt normal again, and extremely fatigued, like the others. The energy surge had come and gone.

At the time, I felt that ‘God’ had answered my spiritual cry, and that this experience confirmed that my life was going in the right direction. I felt that truth had been revealed to me in a very special way, and that I was one major step closer to personal healing and spiritual enlightenment.

In unraveling the story behind my seduction, though, I see now that by calling out to the spirits of American Indian pantheism and following the pattern of the vision quest ritual, I again had unknowingly opened myself to the wiles of Satan. I had asked for a ‘vision’ and ‘powers’ and got both. By crossing into the Biblically forbidden territory of occult practices (Deuteronomy 18:10-12), I had ventured onto Satan’s turf.

The enemy and his demonic legions masquerade many times as angels of light and servants of righteousness (2 Cor. 11:13-15). This was a constant thread through all my New Age experiences, happening time and time again. What I was absolutely convinced was truth was actually an extended series of masterful counterfeits. The powerful experiences and elegant philosophies in the New Age can be so utterly convincing to even the most well-intentioned persons. This is what is so sad about so many people involved in the New Age.

In this experience, I had gone through yet another mystical doorway into further reaches of Satan’s New Age landscapes. I also acquired a ‘familiar spirit’ – a demon masquerading as the spirit-hawk with which I felt such a close affinity. In a way similar to the American Indians, I had acquired a ‘power animal’, my ‘spirit helper’.

This demon parasite attached itself to me in the masquerading appearance of a spirit-hawk. By now, with all the yoga initiations, guru-connections, ‘inner counsellors’ and a ‘power animal’, I was enmeshed firmly in Satan’s web of luminous darkness.

Within the next week I re-injured a problem knee, had a terrible case of intestinal problems (from the raunchy water), and had to hitch-hike back to Provo, Utah. In all fairness, the participants in this program were given fair warning about the severe conditions and steep challenge of the program. Survival we wanted, and survival we got.

A year later, still very concerned about obtaining further survival skills for the cataclysmic times I felt to be ahead for the world, I attended a two-week Security and Survival Training seminar. In it I learned about martial arts, military-style strategies for scouting, evasion, and defence, nuclear fall-out measures, living off the land, water purification, and a host of other bottom-line techniques for survival through world-shaking times. While many of my New Age friends thought that they could meditate and fast through such a crisis period, I figured to cover all possible angles, from the spiritual to the bottom-line practical.


Becoming a holistic health professional


Now I was ready seriously to pursue vocational training in holistic health. This was an area in which I further could pursue my New Age beliefs. It promised to teach me further how to heal myself, and also lead to a professional career. I found a holistic health learning center with a two-year program leading to an N.D. (naturopathic doctor) degree. The program was set up to have several in-residence learning sessions at the school each year. For the rest of the time we were given substantial assignments to do on our own.

In keeping with its ‘natural’ approach to health care, the school was located in the beautiful backwoods of northern Minnesota, with the classroom overlooking a lake were we would sometimes see bald eagles and golden eagles hover overhead and dive for fish. It was all quite idyllic.

The school was run in a very professional manner, with a serious and disciplined approach. A significant portion of my fellow students were nurses and former nurses who were disillusioned with orthodox medicine. All of us were aiming toward a fairly well-paying job in the fast-expanding holistic health field. This was and is one of the strongest and most well-developed branches of the New Age Movement, and the job opportunities were plentiful.

This program had a very different focus than the sometimes loony approach I encountered at the health retreat a while back (those wonderful ‘jackhammer’ bodywork sessions and other such practices). There were several world-renowed figures who would fly in to instruct on occasion, and several M.D.s were on the faculty. Holistic health is basically an attempt to use natural substances (such as herbs, juices, etc.) and natural treatment methods to heal the whole person – body, emotions, mind, and spirit. This movement is radically opposed to much of what orthodox medicine has to offer.

Over the two years I completed a course of study that included such subjects as: Trauma-free exercise; Iridology; Fasting; European Weight Reduction Programs; Diet and Nutrition; Stress Management; Body-Mind Integration Techniques; Swedish Massage; Postural Integration Bodywork; Trigger Point Therapy; European Health Rejuvenation Techniques; Martial Arts; Spiritual Awareness Enhancement; and Herbology.

Holistic medicine is one of the trickiest areas to sort out the New Age from the non-New Age. This is to say, a holistic professional might recommend that a person do aerobic exercise and take a multivitamin, but doing the exercise and taking the vitamin is not necessarily New Age. This important issue of discerning and separating what is and is not New Age in the field of holistic health is often a complex and subtle one requiring extensive examination [7].

The primary point here is to note that the large majority of people involved in the program, including the head instructor, had an underlying New Age philosophy. Yet never in all the school’s literature and clinical hand-outs was the term New Age used. There was a conscious and careful attempt to package and market holistic health in a more scientific and mainstream-acceptable way so as to appeal to the broadest possible number of people. This was done with good intent, as it was believed that holistic health is totally beneficial to all people. But the essential problem is that New Age philosophy lies at the core of much of the holistic health field.

My educational experiences there led to an even more subtle seduction. By seeing how the New Age could apply to so many different aspects of life – exercise, nutrition, body therapies, emotional health, stress management, etc. with sometimes remarkable effectiveness – I saw that the New Age had a host of practical, down-to-Earth, positive effects (though, there are many dangers implicit in some holistic health practices). In fact, I experienced significant psychological healing and enhanced physical health by applying some of the techniques over several years.

I also saw that a few aspects of holistic health – particularly some of the exercise and nutritional information – have a scientifically verified basis. The M.D. instructors at the school (a couple of whom occupied highly respected positions in the medical community) lent a greater air of authority and mainstream respectability.

The area of holistic health is one of the most subtle and sophisticated areas of the murky merging of the esoteric and the mundane, the metaphysical with the mainstream, the pseudo-scientific with the scientific, the non-New Age with the New Age.

I was fascinated with my studies and felt that I really had found my life’s calling. On a professional level I couldn’t even remotely think of anything else that I would want to do with my life.

Comfortable and secure in this knowledge, I could not yet even IMAGINE the astounding turn my life shortly would take.


Notes to chapter one


1. In New Age terms, ‘higher consciousness’ basically means a supernaturally expanded frame of mind that supposedly embraces a grander understanding of universal truth that transcends rational thought.

2. See Grow Rich! with Peace of Mind, by Napoleon Hill (New York, NY: 1967). pp. 158-159.

3. Trance channeling is a phenomenon in which the medium allows a spirit to take over the mind and body. During the channeling session, the spirit’s personality (usually very different from that of the medium) is evidenced by their words, body movements, style of speech, etc. The medium is usually totally unconscious of whatever happens during the session. Afterwards, the medium will then ‘return’.

4. A ‘yogi’ is a person who is dedicated to the discipline of Yoga.

5. A mantra is a word or short phrase that is repetitiously sounded in meditation. Many mantras are names of various Hindu deities.

6. ‘Bodywork’ is a general term referring to a wide variety of massage and massage-like holistic health treatments.

7. For an in-depth analysis on this subject, see New Age Medicine: A Christian Perspective on Holistic Health, by Paul Reisser, M.D., Teri Reisser, & John Weldon.



Chapter two



Somehow, the startling sequence of events that was to overtake me shortly seemed as if destiny already had charted out this bizarre but astonishing rise to New Age fame. Miraculous ‘coincidences’ kept opening up doors for a totally unknown young man – me – virtually to be catapulted into a meteoric New Age career.

In the midst of all the uncanny, overwhelming, bizarre, and wacky happenings detailed in this chapter, powerful forces were at work to raise me up to a position of leadership. In deep delusion at the time, I thought that the ‘Force’ was simply very strong with me, and that the cosmic gods were paving the way for me to do important work in bringing about a revolutionary New Age ‘One World Order’.

It never, ever occurred to me that Satan could be in back of all of this. Such a thought would have seemed absolutely outlandish at the time. The New Age, I thought, was the veritable stepping stone into the kingdom of heaven. It is hailed as the final solution to all the world’s woes, and the bearer of a planetary super-Renaissance of human consciousness, government, and science. To suggest otherwise, I thought, was pure ignorance, and to suggest that the plans and forces of the Antichrist lurked beneath this ‘super-Renaissance’ was absolute folly.

The deluded of the New Age are not aware of their delusion. This is what is so pitiful – and so potentially dangerous.

So much of the New Age felt so good, so true, so awe-inspiring. Oh, the cleverness and finesse of the adversary, who devises schemes within schemes and wraps them within other entrancing schemes.

To follow this tale of deception, brainwashing, and bondage is to see the enemy at work, as an angel of light, beautiful on the outside but rotten at the core. May the reader be alerted to Satan’s strategies, and so be better buttressed against them. Forewarned is forearmed.

In the unfolding ‘inside story’ of a former New Age leader, a panorama of alien, farfetched, and even shocking New Age landscapes are exposed. By coming to perceive this weird, brainwashed New Age mentality, the reader is better forewarned of the motives and goals of New Agers, as well as some of the deceiving strategies of the Antichrist forces.


Meeting a New Age ‘soul-mate’


Freshly graduated from holistic health school, holding high hopes and enthusiastic visions of a successful career, I had no idea of the even more radical twist my life was about to take.

For a while events unfolded as I had foreseen. I went about opening up a ‘Natural Health Center’ in a medium-sized city in East Texas. In a small, business-zoned house, I offered personalized health care programs, bodywork treatments, weekly ‘Awakening Your Potential’ classes, iridology analysis, meditation and Hatha Yoga classes, health care products, and a host of other products and services. I even had a carefully planned ‘deep relaxation environment’ in one room where a special arrangement of colors, plants, aromas, art, subliminal tapes, and New Age music was created to induce ‘therapeutic deep relaxation’. Business was slow, but I knew it would take time to build up a practice.

In a local bookstore, I came across a flyer advertising the New Age Awareness Center. It looked like something right up my alley. It would be nice to find some metaphysically like-minded people to New Age around with.

I called the number and talked for a while with a sweet-sounding lady who was the director. She informed me that this Center was composed of a loosely affiliated group of people who would attend free-of-charge lectures and programs on various New Age topics. There was no membership, no fees, and no commitment necessary. During the conversation, I offered to give a free evening lecture on holistic health sometime. She agreed and we set a date.

Later, after the presentation, Vicki, the director, and I chatted for a while after every one else had gone. She told me in a light but honest way that she virtually detested health foods and all that holistic health craze. She much preferred a diet heavy on Twinkies, Ho-Ho’s and Ding-Dongs. I tried to take all this in stride, but a real New Ager to my mind was a fastidious vegetarian who never would stoop to eating such outright ‘garbage’. I thought she was a pleasant person, but definitely not my type.

In regularly attending the New Age Awareness Center Meetings, I got to know ‘Miss Twinkie’, as I secretly referred to her in my mind. Little did I know that she saw me as ‘Mr. Natural Self-Righteous’. There was definitely some static behind our friendly demeanor toward one another, but strangely enough there was a growing spiritual attraction. Somehow, we would find ourselves talking late into the night after a meeting was over, even as we carefully positioned ourselves at very opposite ends of a long couch.

Time after time this would happen. There was no romance involved in this at all – the ‘chemistry’ was just not there. But there was a mutual spiritual attraction that was growing so strong that it started to frighten us.

Over several weeks we searched in our meditations for direction regarding this alarming situation. We came to have a powerful feeling that we were being spiritually ‘called’ to join together and do New Age ‘light-work’ together. We felt that a ‘mission’ had been divinely bestowed on us. Because of this, we became a spiritual soul mate ‘couple’.


The crystal connection


Vicki had received a small but perfect quartz crystal from an American Indian medicine man – one of his ‘power objects’ [1].

One day when doing New Age meditation, she was instructed by her ‘spirit guides’ to give me the crystal and to ask me to meditate with it. This was bizarre. The idea of meditating with a hunk of rock sounded patently ridiculous.

After laughing about the idea for a couple of days, I decided to give it a shot. It couldn’t hurt, could it?

Only minutes after focusing on the crystal in a state of trance-like meditation, my consciousness was catapulted into electrifying domains of extra-natural light the likes of which I had never before perceived. The upper part of my head felt like it wasn’t there, like it had become invisible, as my awareness raced upwards at the speed of light. From a high distance, I could see in my mind’s eye that my body was trembling and shaking as the power of the experience rattled through it.

This was my ‘crystal initiation’ into an entirely different supernatural realm. Wow! Was this ‘crystal power’ or what? [2]

For the rest of the week my crystal-aided meditations brought vivid visions of strange high-tech machines and contraptions all using crystal in different ways. It was like stepping into a science fiction novel about technologies on an alien planet. I also saw visions of a high-crystal-tech holistic health clinic with lasers, holography, color beams, glowing liquids, and more in this mind-boggling sci-fi film.

Several close friends remarked on a distinct change in my demeanor. Somehow, they said, I was more charged and outgoing. I felt blissful, as if I had found an entirely new part of myself. Sadly, though, in reality I blindly had entered an entirely different realm of Satan’s high-tech, dazzling deceptions. Sure, all this was a blast and I was riding a high like I had never known, but later there would be a very dear price to pay for all this occult adventurism. A dear price indeed.

With seemingly providential timing, a man called the New Age Awareness Center to see if the center would sponsor his 1-day crystal workshop. Vicki and I marvelled at this uncanny coincidence.

I couldn’t wait to see what mysteries would be unveiled.

For the most part, the workshop consisted of guided meditations somewhat like those in Silva Mind Control (remember the inner sanctuary), except this time we were to project our minds into the crystal held in front of the forehead (where the occult ‘third eye’ [3] is located). I thought that this was a crazy idea, but went ahead and tried it anyway. In the first guided meditation I wasn’t really getting the hang of it, but starting with the second one I felt that my mind somehow was focused inside the crystal. We were guided to explore various sensory perceptions of the crystal structure – are there any sounds, how does it feel, what do you see, etc. Almost everyone in the workshop experienced some perceptions, though they were all different from each other.

In a later guided meditation, I saw a vision of a large library composed solely of different sizes and shapes of crystals, each containing volumes of stored information, like a sci-fi, futuristic concept. I also saw elaborate crystal computers glowing and scintillating with multicolored electric charges. Alien beings of short stature and enlarged heads attended to a large complex of high-tech crystal instruments and machines that did ultra-advanced things I couldn’t comprehend. Funny thing about the alien technicians, they worked together wordlessly like a bunch of bees in a coordinated group synchrony. This was getting a little crazy.

After the workshop, my mind was reeling with the new ideas, trying to comprehend this new world that was opening up inside of me. I really was getting hooked on crystals.

Shortly thereafter I went to a psychic fair in Dallas. Amid all the usual psychic readers I came upon a man calling himself ‘Saint’ who wore a tag identifying himself as a ‘gemologist’. He was not giving psychic readings about people, but rather about crystals. He said that he could tell you the history of the crystal, what kind of information it contained, and what its best uses were.

Here was my next step along the ‘crystal connection’ seduction that started to take the place of the ‘guru connection’ that Satan had used to lead me onwards in previous years.

‘Saint’ and I felt an immediate affinity – as though we were long-lost brothers. He had been involved in crystals for a number of years already, and knew much more than I did. At the time – the very early 80s – crystal power was still very much a lesser-known, unpopular topic. For hours after the psychic fair ended, he regaled me with tales of UFOs with which he was in constant communication, inside knowledge on how the UFOs were preparing to make themselves known to the world, and even a time when he was beamed aboard a spaceship to receive an Emerald Ray initiation and a crystal implant in his body (shades of Whitley Streiber’s best-selling book Communion).

I really had never thought much about UFOs before, but the stories were utterly fascinating. Little did I know then how large a role the UFO-connection would play in my own life and in the 1980s New Age as a whole.

‘Saint’ loaned me his ‘master stone’ to help me ‘activate my consciousness onto a higher Light-frequency’. It was a strange-looking, blackish, ovoid-shaped stone with thousands of tiny spines sticking out all around it. Years later I found out that this was a rock called tektite, the unusual characteristics of which still cause debate among scientists as to whether it is a type of meteor. I carried this stone ‘power object’ throughout the next few dramatic months.


Aligning into New Directions


The 1982 Grand Alignment was fast approaching. A precursor of the infamous 1987 Harmonic Convergence, this major New Age event, was based on a highly unusual astrological alignment of planets that was supposed to usher in a new level of ‘cosmic light’ to the Earth. Such times always seem to bring out the most dramatic experiences in New Agers.

We were no different. As the moment of Grand Alignment came to pass, Vicki and I both independently came to a decision to move from East Texas. We did what many New Agers would do – we got out a map of the USA and used a pendulum to divine our next destination.

The pendulum indicated one of the hottest New Age hot spots of the early 1980s – the Santa Fe, New Mexico area.

We also decided that because of the deep bond we shared in doing our New Age light-work that we should be married. That there was no romance between us was secondary – we just felt that we should be together. It was an unusual strain of New Age thinking, to be sure.

We planned a ‘spiritual marriage ceremony’. And, typical of New Agers, we wanted to do it in a mystical location. Having recently heard of the ‘Marfa lights’ near the tiny town of Marfa, West Texas, we planned to do the private ceremony on the trip to New Mexico. The Marfa Lights are sightings of strange luminous appearances that seem to center around Marfa, dating back to American Indian times. Many myths and legends surround this unexplained phenomenon. (New Agers love this kind of thing.)

Over the next couple of months we planned our move to the promising metaphysical horizons of Santa Fe. Though we had little money, no jobs waiting, and little idea of what we actually were going to do there, we simply trusted in our inner guidance and the tail of the pendulum.

We did the spiritual marriage ritual in this utterly desolate location. However, we didn’t see the Marfa lights.

We felt like intrepid metaphysical voyagers seeking out new vistas, charting new lands. Little did we know that our years in northern New Mexico would exceed our wildest dreams – and we could dream pretty wildly.


The spirit world reveals its plans for me


In the early 80s Santa Fe was regarded by many New Agers as a particularly hot ‘vortex area’. A vortex is supposed to be a special area where the power and magnitude of mystical energies is unusually high; a place in some ways ‘closer’ to the heavens than the other locations of ‘lower vibrations’. Wherever a vortex is, you can be sure that New Agers will be flocking there in droves to absorb and bask in the ‘rarefied vibrations’. Mt. Shasta, California, Maui, Hawaii, and Sedona, Arizona are other prime examples of such metaphysical magnets.

Santa Fe in those days – the late 70s to early 80s – was really like an isolated microcosm of the New Age Movement. In some ways it was like a miniature Southwest version of the leading-edge San Francisco-based New Age subculture. If something New Age really was happening it would be happening in Santa Fe. The metaphysical menu was always extensive and dynamically changing. For the exploring New Ager, this was a paradise.

We lucked into an unusual opportunity to live in a low-rent/great-view house. The unique South-western combination of high desert, mesas, and mountains, as well as the smell of pinyon in the air, can be breathtaking at times.

The first thing we did was to take two weeks off for a type of ‘spiritual honeymoon’ – lots of the spiritual, but no passion (by mutual choice).

Exploring the mystical landscapes of the Southwest was our quest. There was much to explore and many surprises.

The spiritual honeymoon was a head-turning one, though a most New Age one. While the daytime visits to marvelous tourist locations and vortex spots were fun, it was the nighttimes that ‘blew my mind’.

The spirit world began to speak to us explicitly and directly. All of a sudden Vicki would go into a trance. Then a spirit would come into her body and animatedly speak. I couldn’t believe what was happening.

These electrically compelling spirits would come in and identify themselves, and then proceed to convey some august universal message of great import. I found that I even could converse with these ‘high and wise’ spirit-entities. They would answer my questions with what sounded like great wisdom and supernatural prescience. The variety of spirits coming and going was astounding – I talked with spirits identifying themselves as ‘Moses’, ‘Mozart’, ‘White Eagle’, ‘White Cloud’, ‘Serapis Bey’, ‘Ascended Master Kuthumi’, ‘Mary’, ‘Golden-Helmeted Ones’, ‘Green Ray Master’ and a host of others. The power emanating from these spirits was overwhelming and entrancingly intoxicating.

For hours at a time, spirit after spirit would come into Vicki’s body and speak through her. She was totally oblivious to what was being said and done. It was like she was tucked away somewhere while the spirits temporarily would ‘use her vehicle’, as they said, to speak to me.

I was flabbergasted by what they told me. Distilling the volumes of information, essentially this array of exalted ‘Universal Masters’ and ‘Servants of the Light’ told me this: that Vicki and I, and a few select others like us around the world, were receiving a ‘grand dispensation’ to be the vanguard ‘Bearers of New Age Light’ to lead the world into the fast-approaching ‘Golden Age of Oneness’.

They told us to start to call out in our meditations to the ‘Space Brothers’, who allegedly were highly advanced extraterrestrial intelligences stationed in our solar system. These ‘Space Brothers’ had come from a variety of galaxies, and were part of a collective ‘Intergalactic Space Federation’ working together to assist planets like Earth to go through a ‘purification process’ preceding a quantum leap into a new evolutionary stage of human development – a New Age of ‘Heaven-on-earth’.

The Space Brothers were said to work in conjunction with the ‘Great White Brotherhood’ (also known as the ‘Spiritual Hierarchy of Light), a universal hierarchy of Ascended Masters, archangels, angels, and other types of spirit-beings who administrate and control all aspects of creation.

I was told that our task was to help bring the advanced teachings of the Great White Brotherhood to those people who would be receptive to New Age consciousness and also to share techniques (many of them using crystals) so that these people could be ‘activated into a higher consciousness of Light’. I was informed that my path already had been charted out and decreed into action by the ‘Higher Councils of Universal Masters’, and that I should therefore expect many dramatic doors to open in the coming years.

Unbelievable! The cosmic ‘gods’ were speaking directly to me, saying that Vicki and I were ‘chosen ones’ specially hand-picked to lead the world into the New One-World Era.

I was stunned for days by these overpowering experiences and revelations. I thought that I was pretty far out before all of this. But as the weeks and months unfolded, several of these spirits’ pronouncements actually materialized in uncanny ways, plus in Vicki’s and my meditations we started to receive startlingly clear transmissions from spirit-sources identifying themselves as Space Brothers.

This was getting to be like an episode from the ‘Twilight Zone’. But the power of these experiences felt good, our lives were fun and exciting, and the words of ‘peace, light, and brotherhood’ seemed totally enlightened and benignly love-filled.

The higher plateaus of my seduction and bondage were set into motion here with full force. I had been enticed with visions of high cosmic drama and promises of world-shaking spiritual work to be done, while the powerful charms of luminous demons masquerading as angels of light conspired to mesmerize and brainwash me to deeper levels of bondage.

Channeling of this kind is really quite common in many New Age circles. Many who are true-believers maintain successful professional careers even as they fully indulge in the New Age. What to some would appear verging on the insane (or inane), appears to these true-believers as high truth beyond the reckoning of the less evolved.

In retrospect, I see that the sometimes overwhelming power accompanying these experiences that I thought then was heavenly love and light was actually an entrancing force put forth by demonic deceivers so that a type of open-eyed, light-to-deep hypnotic trance occurs in the recipients. Being much more vulnerable and suggestible in this state, even as the person feels wonderful and ‘light-filled’, brainwashing influences can then be subliminally seeded.

Recall how easy it is for professional hypnotists to hypnotise a group of people all at once. Once in this trance state, the people can be implanted with all kinds of normal-to-bizarre hypnotic suggestions that they will perform at the command of the hypnotist.

With regard to New Age channeling, a parallel dynamic takes place, though the mode of hypnotising and the suggestions implanted are of a very different variety. The fact that channeling is one of the hottest phenomena in the New Age today is no happenstance – it is an integral part of the enemy’s power-play to induce larger magnitudes of delusion in the millions of people composing this fast-growing movement.


‘Cutting my teeth’ on the New Age


Up to this point, I was a student, basking in the comfort of the pursuit of knowledge while not yet being tied to the full gamut of adult responsibilities. Now I had to go out and make an actual living in the real world of bills to pay and duties to fulfill. More than anything else, the next years were a transition into married manhood. It was indeed a learning experience.

With a fair amount of perseverance, fortitude, and resourcefulness a New Ager with some type of professional New Age training can eek out a passable living. Over the next two years I was involved in a fairly wide spectrum of activities, including the following. This list is a partial study of New Age inroads into some branches of mainstream society:


· Teaching hatha yoga classes at the local YMCA.

· Teaching ‘Dynamic Relaxation’ classes through the Continuing Education branch of the state university.

· Giving lectures at the public library on ‘Quartz Crystals and Self-Transformation’.

· Giving ‘crystal healing sessions’ at a popular local metaphysical bookstore.

· Teaching aerobic classes at the YMCA.

· Being a staff member of a local holistic health school.

· Giving ‘natural health care’ lectures to the general public.

· Offering ‘Maximizing Wellness’ personalized holistic health consultations.

· Coordinating a city-wide ‘New Age Networking Guide to Santa Fe’.

· Organizing a New Age ‘Festival of Light’.

· Participating in various New Age conferences and expos in Santa Fe.

· Selling crystals at flea markets.

· Selling crystals at psychic fairs.

· And having a few garage sales to make ends meet.


On the side, we organized a New Mexico version of Vicki’s Texas-based New Age Awareness Center. The flyer presented it as a ‘service-based, non-path-oriented forum for all spiritual expressions’. Various metaphysical and holistic health speakers would give free evening presentations. The smorgasbord of New Age topics would include such things as:


· Peruvian whistling vessels (occult whistles for inducing trance-states).

· Group channeling sessions.

· Bach Flower Remedies (the ‘vibrational essences’ of flowers for healing purposes).

· New Age art.

· Acupuncture.

· ‘Meeting Your Soul-mate’

· A ‘Come As You Were’ party (costumes of past life incarnations).

· Past Life Regressions.

· UFO contact sessions.

· Guided Imagery for Success and Prosperity.

· Stress Management.

· And many more creatively varied topics.


We were quite the New Age activists, dedicatedly propagating the wonderful news of the New Age to as many as would listen. On several occasions we even participated in world-peace demonstrations in the imposing city of Los Alamos – what we called a ‘bastion of mad scientists’ technological horrors’ – where a world-class scientific community has been established since the birth of the Manhattan Project which developed the atomic bomb.

While all this was happening, powerful forces were continuing to guide and groom me for future works of much greater magnitude. These first few years in the Santa Fe scene were as a local apprenticeship leading up to national-level New Age seership.


A warning not well-taken


Before detailing these formative forces and events, it is interesting to note a certain visitor who appeared one night at our doorstep unannounced. A clean-cut young man, about 18 or so, asked if he might come in. Hesitatingly, I allowed him in and offered him a seat.

He came right to the point: ‘God told me to come here and tell you that you’re masquerading as the light. Your master is darkness’.

Rather taken aback by such an unexpected comment, I asked him to repeat this – maybe I had not heard him correctly. He did so, and I heard it the same as before.

Trying to be reasonable, I asked him if he would care to elaborate on this statement – could he prove this in any way?

He simply repeated his statement: ‘God told me to come here and tell you that you’re masquerading as the light. Your master is darkness’.

Understanding this was all he was going to say, I politely thanked him for relaying the message, and assured him I would ponder it. After he left, I simply dismissed the event as being from a crank. After all, I only recently had been having personal conversations with the higher ranks of cosmic ‘gods’, and if I was masquerading as the light, they certainly hadn’t brought it up.

Now, in retrospect, I wonder if Jesus Christ sent me a messenger that night to gently but firmly deliver His truth and a way out of my glittery bondage before I became even more deeply imbedded in it.


Hooked on ‘New Age science’


Within the first month of arriving in Santa Fe, some acquaintances told us of someone we had to meet. Going by the very New Age handle of ‘Marco Atlantis’, this magnetic personality was on the same ‘wavelength’ as the one called ‘Saint’ that I had met a while back.

A swirl of dramas surrounded this man: calling down UFOs to land; plans for building ‘healing temples’; blueprints for super scientific breakthroughs; revelations about government conspiracies and UFO cover-ups; and dates for divine intervention and world deliverance. The man was like a human vortex of cosmic happenings.

He used a lot of advanced-sounding scientific terms mixed up with an unusual metaphysical jargon. When asked about the source of this, he brought out his ‘bible’, a 600-page volume called Keys of Enoch. When I started leafing through its pages, a surge of energy gripped me. There was a vague but profound feeling of déjà vu, a feeling that this book was very familiar to me, and that it held the keys to unlocking incredible cosmic doors. I was so enthralled that I cut the meeting short and made a bee-line for the closest metaphysical bookstore. If I would have had to drive 500 miles that day to get this book, I would have done so. Fortunately a copy was available at a metaphysical bookstore 15 minutes away.

Over the next two months I was obsessed thoroughly with the Keys. The author is a man with many highly respected scholarly and scientific credentials (including more than one Ph.D. degree) who claims to have been translated bodily into the highest heavens and given a scripture for the New Age. In this ‘bible’ I found an unparalleled level of sophistication and way of viewing the ‘big picture’ of the cosmos, the magnitude of which I never had perceived before.

I had read thousands of religion and metaphysical books, but this one was in a class by itself. The author claims that it is written in a coded language that helps to ‘unlock the mind-gates’ to the ‘Great White Brotherhood’ (also called the ‘Spiritual Hierarchy of Light’). Time after time, upon reading certain passages I would have visions come before my mind’s eye or spontaneously would go into a state of trance-meditation filled with racing thoughts and higher inspirations. My mind-gates were indeed being unlocked, and I was being re-circuited into a whole new dimension of New Age higher consciousness.

The Keys of Enoch claims to be a complete cosmic synthesis of the spiritual and scientific realms. With a peculiar blend of scientific concepts and esoteric principles, this book proposes to have the 64 keys to the ‘Higher Science’ (or ‘Sacred Science’) of totally reconstituting the Earth and its peoples into a New Age.

Interestingly, as I became more and more re-circuited, I came to be fascinated with scientific principles and many areas of leading-edge high technology. This was new to me, for I never really had cared for the dry world of science. In Keys of Enoch I read that startling advances in such diverse scientific fields as genetic engineering, telecommunications, supercomputers, nuclear fusion technology, artificial intelligence, solid state physics, quantum physics, advanced holography, laser optics, astrophysics, and others were to be combined with New Age spiritual philosophy in creating a utopian New World Order.

This ‘Sacred Science’ claims to be a revolutionary super-science capable of linking with the infinite powers of the universe, all applied to completely re-create the planet into a paradise and its populace into gods. Thus, a grand ‘Second Genesis’ would generate a super-Renaissance global utopia. At least, this is what Keys of Enoch and much of New Age philosophy proposes.

In reality, under the guise of light, peace, and love, the New Age seeks to re-make the world into a utopian society that is actually set up by the false Messiah – the Antichrist – leading to attempted world domination.

This New Age spiritual-scientific worldview became the guiding force behind all my future work. For some uncanny reason, I had a special affinity with all this that seemed to just blossom forth from within. It was like I had a special talent that, heretofore, was totally untapped. My own self-perception at the time was that I simply was tapping into the New Age higher consciousness and my own innate ‘god-powers’. In reality, I was undergoing a profound level of brainwashing into some of Satan’s more sophisticated-looking delusionary traps.

If you think that any person like this is so ‘cracked’ that his life would be a wreck and an obvious candidate for a straitjacket, you would be only partially right. Outwardly, my life was very demanding but the challenges of being a New Age activist and a career man were being met quite well. I was basically a happy and fulfilled person, though a significant feeling of inner emptiness persisted.

In the New Age circles all around the country it is not unusual at all to find many people moving through all kinds of such radical higher consciousness transformations. Most of them continue to deal with life’s challenges adequately, some better and some worse.

Shirley MacLaine and John Denver, the two most well-known New Agers, are prime cases in point. They both have made public some of their life-changing higher consciousness transformations, and both still enjoy prolific and highly successful careers. In my own case, within three years of moving to New Mexico, I would come to write two popular New Age books that were published by Harper and Row, a major mainstream publishing house. One can be enmeshed deeply in New Age lies, and at the same time still lead an apparently sane and productive life. This is part of what makes the New Age movement so dangerous.


A crystal power book materializes from ‘heavenly places’


Approximately three months after moving to the northern New Mexico area, my ‘spirit guides’ gave me instructions to write a book on the subject of crystals. It was only a year or so since my very first crystal experiences, and I had no idea how I could accomplish such a task. This was back in 1982-1983 when there were only a few meager and obscure crystal books on the market. It was just a year or two before the massive crystal craze would start to sweep the New Age like a raging wildfire.

The spirit guides told me to take 12 quartz crystals and lay them out in a circle, to tape another one to the occult ‘third eye’ and to suspend a large pyramid overhead. I was to sit in the very center of the crystals with my head underneath the pyramid. This was supposed to create a ‘crystal energy field’ having amplified ‘higher vibrations’ for receiving channeled thoughts from the spirit guides.

To my amazement, as I would enter a kind of semi-conscious trance, discernible thoughts, inspirations, and pictures would appear in my mind. All this was not my own doing – the spirit guides were transmitting their thoughts and influences to me. My job, effectively, was to take notes and then shape up the material into book form.

Over a period of three months I would take my position in the crystal circle for 10-12 hours per day and receive and transcribe this information. With some library research on the history of occult crystal use plus orthodox science’s uses of man-made crystals in various technologies (like computers and lasers), the manuscript was complete.

Uncannily, a major publishing house was actively searching for ‘crystal power’ manuscripts at the time. Out of hundreds of publishers, I chose 15 of them to send manuscripts. Thirteen were returned with a flat rejection notice. One small company was somewhat interested. And, after nine months of deliberation, the major publisher chose my manuscript. I couldn’t believe my good fortune, but what the spirit guides had promised actually had come to pass against incredible odds.

Honestly, at times before this happened, especially when things got a little rough, I was inclined to doubt the revelations and prophetic projections of the spirit guides. In some ways I am a practical person and, if a philosophy is true, it should also work in the ‘real world’ of mainstream society. But signing a contract with a publisher of blue-chip stature and eventually seeing the book in bookstores all around the country was pretty solid confirmation to me.

I was unaware, though, that the power of Satan can work quite effectively in bottom-line reality, too. It was not yet clear to me then that if something ‘works’ that doesn’t necessarily mean it is ultimately true. The enemy can perform ‘counterfeit miracles, signs, and wonders’ (2 Thess. 2:9) that ‘work’ but are not truth in the least.

The book, entitled Windows of Light: Quartz Crystals and Self-Transformation, launched me onto the national New Age scene. Released in 1984, the subject of crystals really was beginning to catch fire. Mine was one of the very first modern-day books on this topic to be released. It sold very well, and generally was considered to be the best book in the field for a number of years. As more and more crystal books cascaded forth in the coming years, my book was considered by most to be consistently among the top three books in the field.

At this time, I started to give weekend seminars in numerous major cities across America. The stage was set for the rise to national leadership.

Even as this book first was reaching bookstores and my national New Age career germinated, voluminous notes were being compiled for a second book. With each passing month, the information was becoming more advanced and elaborate. It was as if I was advancing through different grade levels in a cosmic schoolhouse.

For instance the crystal power ritual techniques were becoming much more complicated. Many of them involved attempts to stimulate and activate what the New Age calls the various psychic power centers located in the brain so as to awaken super-human higher mind-power abilities.

I also started to receive visions of hundreds of different crystal-based inventions. These inventions were not confined just to crystals; they also included pyramids, magnets, sonics, New Age music, color, lasers, electronic devices, computers, high-tech trance-induction machines, and others. Many were quite intricate; some even involved elaborate room-size set-ups involving hundreds of crystals and pyramids, among all the other elements. I was tapping into what seemed to be a mother lode of New Age sacred science.

Though the subject of sacred science is a most complex one, basically this aspect of the New Age is an attempt at a type of modern-day, high-tech sorcery and white magic. [4] This aspect of the New Age Movement was one of the ‘hottest’ fields arising in the late 1970s and 1980s. Thousands of Ph.D.s from diverse scientific fields plus myriad independent thinkers and inventors have made this field a major up-and-coming force having a powerful influence in the New Age Movement today. With a unique blend of a) high-tech devices (like lasers, computers, etc.), b) modernized New Age sorcery, and c) futuristic scientific vision, New Age ‘sacred science’ claims to be the way for man to technologically control the powers of the universe. By ‘awakening your own spiritual god-powers’, sacred science claims that the entire universe can be manipulated by a human-based ‘Master Science’ of extraordinary sophistication, a super-scientific revolution to manifest fully when the New Age dawns.

The fatal flaw (among other defects) of sacred science is that it is a human-devised technological pretender to the throne of Jesus Christ and His way, His Truth, and His life.

In a similar way that the Antichrist will set himself up as a god proclaiming that he has all corresponding sovereign powers to rule the universe, sacred science is New Age man’s attempts to have godlike technological control over himself, his destiny, and the entire cosmos. ‘Push-button miracles’ become a tool of New Age man’s higher consciousness in order to extend his rulership from Earth to the heavens. It is nothing less than an attempt at a modern-day Tower of Babel.

Essentially, New Age science is the attempt to manipulate reality in increasingly more powerful ways via an occult-based sorcery of sorts. To the orthodox scientist sacred science is a fringe-element pseudo-science. To those in the New Age, though, this topic is subject to much speculation and theorizing. Some of these inventions and techniques are experienced subjectively as being effective, sometimes extremely so, in pursuing New Age goals.

Is New Age science just another Alice in Wonderland fantasy? Does it involve the placebo effect? Is it a mad scientist’s dream? Why are Satan’s demons leading more and more New Agers along these lines? Does it have any connection to the UFO issue? These and many other tantalizing questions arise about this strange ‘Twilight Zone’ area of the New Age.

No matter whether sacred science works to some degree or not, I can testify today that it is based on occult principles and practices that are all forbidden, either explicitly or implicitly, in the Holy Bible (Deut. 18:9-12).

This is the ultimate flaw of New Age sacred science. It proved later to be one of my most difficult lessons of all to learn.


Project beam-down


To go back a little in the storyline, while going through the lengthy process of waiting for the publisher’s acceptance of the first book (nine months) and the pre-release publication process (six months), there was a dynamic series of events and experiences continuing to forge my New Age involvements.

At an upscale, nationally known resort outside of Santa Fe, I met the third in the series of high-energy macro-cosmic figures.

First, there was ‘Saint’, then ‘Marco Atlantis’ and now ‘John’.

I had heard of him through the Santa Fe grapevine and it sounded as though he was on a ‘heavy cosmic trip’.

Arranging a meeting at the resort where he resided, I was swept quickly up in the high excitement of John’s dramatic plans.

He claimed that the resort area was the site of the region’s most active vortex – a veritable bridge spanning the gap between the heavens and Earth. John said he had been ‘divinely guided’ to move to the resort and commanded to coordinate the planet’s first direct linkup with the Great White Brotherhood and the Intergalactic Federation (UFOs).

He had an impressive array of highly elaborate, sophisticated looking sacred science devices involving pyramids, crystals, lasers, electronic apparatuses, computers, psychedelic-type New Age music, subliminal cassette tapes, and exotic trance-inducing aromas. These devices were set up in a large symmetrical grid arrangement in a very spacious conference hall.

The idea, according to John, was to use sacred science to create a type of ‘space-time warp’ (kind of like going to warp-drive in Star Trek) so that spirit-beings and extraterrestrials could materialize and interact directly with the people who were within the conference hall. In addition, John said that all this was leading up to further stages of extraterrestrial beings ‘beaming down’ to Earth as well as ‘beamups’ of the New Age elect to spaceships waiting above. The elect were to undergo cosmic initiations and ‘Light-body activations’ [5], so as to receive various advanced psychic powers, universal knowledge, and revolutionary high-tech tools. They then were to beam back down to Earth and help lead the world through a transition period into the One World Golden Era – the New Age.

Had I come to the right place? What Saint, Marco Atlantis, my spirit guides, Keys of Enoch, and many channeled New Age books were all talking about, seemed to be happening before my very eyes. In fact, when the word got out, people came flocking to the resort to ‘tune into’ the celestial happenings. Marco Atlantis, who had been living in Albuquerque, even moved onto the resort lands. This was ‘hot’ property indeed.

What added to the excitement was that people started to report ‘angels’ materializing and increased UFO sightings around the northern New Mexico region. Was it hysteria? Fantasizing? Lying?

Many felt a profound subjective experience of ‘consciousness warping’ in the sacred science set-up (like one’s mind going to warp speed). Was it wishful thinking? The placebo effect? Or demon-controlled delusion and brainwashing?

John relayed his ethereal experience of receiving the ‘Divine Plan’ [6] for all this. He claimed that he physically was beamed up to a command spaceship and was greeted by the fleet commander, a space-woman named Semjaza, originating from the Pleiades star system. Semjaza put him through a series of high-tech ‘chambers’ to ‘activate his Light-body’. She then appointed him to coordinate the Plan on the earthly end of things.

Electric anticipation filled the air for several months. Project Beam-Down (also called ‘Project Second Genesis’) finally was about to happen after many millennia of waiting through lifetime after reincarnated lifetime. We felt  that we were on the threshold of the climax of the ages.

As so often happens, personality friction started to build up. Especially when it came to the issue of who was in command – John or Marco Atlantis. A rift of tension eventually tore the situation apart, even as the appointed date of the Beam-down came and went.

Though somewhat disappointed, I went away from this involvement feeling much more knowledgeable about sacred science and the UFO-connection. As I cut off all ties with John and Marco Atlantis, I felt that their egos had botched the situation and that John had been accurate about some topics but was in error with the setting of dates for the Beam-down.

Looking at this scenario today, I see that my early guru-connection by now had been replaced by a 1-2-3 punch of the UFO-connection, the crystal-connection, and the Keys of Enoch connection. All three New Age connections now had become my most powerful links of delusion. By now I was in deep trouble but was absolutely unaware of it. At this point:


· The lies of demons masquerading as ‘Ascended Masters’ and ‘extraterrestrials’ had cast a brainwashing spell.

· Occult-based New Age practices revolving around crystal idols mesmerized the mind.

· The allures of the modernized sorcery of sacred science worked its delusionary demon-conspired magic.


You might think that surely all this totally bizarre New Age UFO drama is probably just an isolated incident. But, in fact, it’s not really that uncommon a New Age scenario at all. Would you believe that more than 75 percent of New Agers hold a completely unshakable belief in the reality of UFOs? Actually, 75 percent is probably an understatement. It’s most likely around 85-95 percent. Even further, a solid percentage of New Agers – I’d estimate 50 percent or more – truly believe that they are alien or angelic beings that have reincarnated today into human form.

For instance, John Denver has made public the belief that he originated from a place near the Lyra nebula. In Shirley MacLaine’s best-selling book and TV miniseries, Out on a Limb, the UFO-connection plays a major role in her cosmic vision quest. MacLaine’s mentor, David, claims to have had a romantic and spiritual involvement with an alien woman named Mayan.

In general, believing that you’re from the Orion, Sirius, or Pleiades star systems, among others, are very popular New Age self-concepts. Personally, I was convinced completely that my celestial home was Orion.

In fact, the question of whether UFOs are real is rarely contested or questioned. This belief is part and parcel of much, though not all, of the New Age mentality. UFOs are involved quite heavily in their concepts of the world’s deliverance from a time of suffering and tribulation into an enlightened ‘One World United Government’ (that is, the New Age).

Most New Agers hold firmly to the view that hundreds, if not thousands, of UFOs already are deeply involved in rendering aid to planet Earth in subtle but highly significant ways. But, because of a kind of ‘prime non-interference directive’ (like on Star Trek), the extraterrestrials cannot intervene directly or render explicit assistance until humanity is ready for their help. These extraterrestrials are believed to have a highly evolved spiritual philosophy (akin to New Age philosophy) and extremely advanced technologies, both of which form the foundation for the New Age One World Order.

As wacky as all this sounds, there are many millions of New Agers who absolutely are convinced of this view. In fact, in most New Age circles, a person is considered a bit weird or ‘out of it’ if he doesn’t believe in all this.

What one might call a ‘UFO virus’ has infected a huge sector of the New Age subculture. From past personal experience, I can say that the influences felt while I was in the grips of this ‘virus’ were utterly compelling and convincing. Whether UFOs are ‘real’ has not been determined scientifically as yet; whatever is happening here, there is a demonic power in back of the entire phenomenon.

In commenting on this topic in his book, Angels: God’s Secret Agents, Billy Graham states: ‘Some reputable scientists deny and others assert that UFOs do appear to people from time to time. Some scientists have reached the place where they think they can prove that these are possibly visitors from outer space …. many people are now seeking some type of supernatural explanation for these phenomena. Nothing can hide the fact, however, that these unexplained events are occurring with greater frequency around the entire world and in unexpected places’ [7].

Also, in Confronting the New Age, Douglas Groothuis reports: ‘Those supposedly contacted by the UFOs often display traits common in other kinds of occult phenomena such as a trance state, automatic writing, peering into crystals, the poltergeist effect, levitation, psychic control, psychic healing and out-of-body experiences’ [8],

Whatever is going on when people receive ‘telepathic communications’ and ‘channeled information’ form ‘higher entities’ claiming to be extraterrestrials, it is powerfully demonic in nature. What I see clearly today in light of the Holy Bible is that the UFO virus is yet another aspect of the end times ‘powerful delusion’ spoken of in 2 Thess. 2:9-12:

“The coming of the lawless one will be in accordance with the work of Satan displayed in all kinds of counterfeit miracles, signs and wonders, and in every sort of evil that deceives those who are perishing. They perish because they refused to love the truth and so be saved. For this reason God sends them a powerful delusion so that they will believe the lie and so that all will be condemned who have not believed the truth but have delighted in wickedness”.

It’s so easy to be deceived by all kinds of counterfeit miracles, signs and wonders, as I was. So deeply so that I was totally blinded to the Resurrection and the Life of Christ Jesus.

The ultimate paradox for New Agers is that they believe the lie that they’re heading for the New Age kingdom of heaven-on-earth. All the while, they’re really following a Satan-conspired path to destruction.

Looking back on when I used to believe in the New Age lie, it is nothing less than utterly terrifying. The demonic power behind the seduction is dazzling to the point of blindness.

Had Jesus not delivered me from the powerful delusion of the New Age, I certainly would have been shocked to the core at the time of judgement. For without salvation through Jesus, I surely would have been cast into the lake of fire, and experienced the “weeping and gnashing of teeth” (Matt. 13:42). Not a very pleasant fate, to be sure.


Meeting the ‘Lord Maitreya’


Word got around Santa Fe New Age circles that a man claiming to be the ‘World Teacher’ recently had located himself and his operation in Albuquerque. Marco Atlantis was for a short time, living at his small headquarters in the suburban sections of this arid New Mexico city. He put in a word about Vicki and me, and we were granted a personal audience.

Buzzing with excitement about being in the presence of a Universal Master, we entered a nondescript, medium-sized suburban adobe house. Finding two blissfully smiling young women waiting to usher us to the ‘Great One’, we first were led into a meditation room filled with pictures of ‘Maitreya’ and other Eastern religious symbology, and instructed to ‘prepare our minds to receive the Maitreya in our consciousness’.

Hosted into the room, the ‘Lord Maitreya’ sat in cross-legged position on top of a double-mattress arrangement with dirty, wrinkled sheets. We were to sit on pillows on the floor, directly in front of him. He was a smallish man, Middle-Eastern-looking, and rather nondescript in appearance. Here he was, an enlightened Master. What divine dewdrops would he bless us with?

After about 30 minutes, both Vicki and I had clued in to the fact that this guy perhaps was well-intentioned but seriously deluded about himself and his supposedly supreme universal stature. This ‘Lord Maitreya’ person had some degree of polish to his New Age rap, but we felt that he definitely was not a world-messiah. We started to ask him a few trick questions, and he seemed oblivious to the fact that he was providing answers about concrete facts of our personal life that were totally incorrect.

There was definitely, though, a buzz in the atmosphere of the place. For some, he might serve as an attractive guru-figure, but to increasingly seasoned New Age observers, he just didn’t measure up.

Such a totally enlightened ‘World Teacher’ would have read these thoughts in our minds, but we were polite and he actually thought we had bought into his exalted status. His followers repeatedly called us afterwards, trying to firm up what they thought to be our converted discipleship. They kept asking us for favors and money, which we politely fended off.

Over the next year, we received a couple of mail-outs containing the World Teacher’s proclamations and directives for all of his followers. Later, we heard no more from him, nor do we know what became of his female entourage.

I don’t know if the Lord Maitreya who I met is the same mysterious Lord Maitreya of international intrigue who ran full-page ads in newspapers around the world proclaiming: ‘In answer to our call for help, as World Teacher for all humanity, the Christ is now here’. This highly touted 1982 occurrence claimed that this ‘Christ’ would be heard telepathically by all peoples in their own language.

Apparently the world was not ready to receive his royal New Ageness, and he did not appear as promised.

Benjamin Crème of the Tara Center, the Maitreya’s leading spokesperson, claimed that the World Teacher was working in cognito in London. In the years since, no one, not even anyone in the New Age Movement, has confirmed any of this, and it remains a mystery.

On January 12, 1987, a full page ad in USA Today added another installment of this drama, proclaiming: ‘The Christ is in the world. A great World Teacher for people of every religion and no religion.’

Did I meet the real Lord Maitreya or merely a pale imitation? To this day, I do not know. Maybe so, maybe not. There are thousands of false prophets and false christs rampant in the New Age landscape. If I did in fact meet the one being trumpeted so grandly, I can see why he would not come out of the closet. The sham would be all too obvious. He would fare no better than one of his early predecessors – a man by the name of J. Krishnamurti.

In the mid-1920s this young wunderkind dazzled audiences in India with reported coronets of brilliant blue appearing over his head as he spoke of himself in the first person as a god. As he attempted to extend his reign, he arrived to thunderous cheers in Europe. But as he sailed to America his charisma and occult powers mysteriously left him, and a writer for the New York Times reported that Krishnamurti was virtually incoherent during an interview, and characterized him as ‘a shy, badly frightened, nice-looking young Hindu’. Krishnamurti’s messianic claims quickly fizzled.

There are thousands and thousands of false prophets and false christs springing up in the New Age Movement today. In fact, the New Age serves as a prime breeding ground of sorts for Satan to groom and raise up a wide variety of these agents of deception, from the more obvious ones to the more subtle, slick, and sophisticated.

I see clearly now that the more obviously false prophets and christs like Krishnamurti, ‘Saint’, ‘Marco Atlantis’, Ramtha, Maitreya, Lazaris (the most influential spirit being channeled today), and a host of others are in some ways a diversionary tactic of Satan’s. In his schemes within schemes wrapped within other schemes, the enemy lays out a full array of false prophets and false christs, the more obvious ones relatively clearly and easily are identified as such.

The potential problem here, though, is relaxing one’s guard by stereotyping the characteristics of Satan’s obvious forerunners as applying to all the rest of them. The more obvious ones are actually set-ups so that as many people as possible will think that’s what all false prophets and false christs are like. Then it becomes all the easier for slick, urbane, sophisticated wolves-in-sheep’s-clothing – the Antichrist and his immediate forerunners – to fool great numbers of the world population.


Meeting a false Christ of national renown


About six months later there was a buzz around town – one of the hottest channels in the country was bringing her program to New Mexico. For considered reasons, let’s dub the woman channel ‘Ms. S’ (short for Ms. Seductress) and the spirit being channeled ‘Master D’ (short for master of deception). Little did I know when I paid my $125 for the 3-hour program that I was about to get an education of quite a different sort than anticipated.

With the session starting 45 minutes late, the crowd of 175 or so had an edge of high anticipation and irritated edginess. The grand entrance of Ms. S, already in trance and in character as Master D, was suitably regal. After all, here was a spirit claiming to be a ‘god’, one who had attained full cosmic enlightenment, and who could boast of tens of thousands of avid (or is it rabid) followers.

Suitably enthroned on a kingly looking chair up on a high platform, Master D surveyed the entire room silently for 5-8 minutes, ostensibly to see all and know all about everyone in the room. Firstimers like myself were seated in the front rows, and possibly we were to be granted the opportunity to ask Master D any question we wanted. Here was my big chance, if he (she?) would only call on me.

To my great surprise, Master D turned straightaway to me.

As I opened my mouth to ask the first question, I felt a force envelop me, putting me somewhat off-guard and a little fuzzy-headed.

Recovering my balance a bit, the thought quickly passed my mind that this must be the power of this spirit’s love embracing me. Though I was to find out later that Master D customarily spends only 3-4 minutes with each person, he dialogued with me for a good 20-25 minutes.

Actually, it was more a monologue. I had asked a couple of questions about my New Age spiritual work and its future directions. What I received was an extended discourse on the misdirectedness and futility of my current projects and goals. I was stunned both rationally and by a force that made me quite passive and virtually unable to challenge what was being said. I watched myself turn into a yes-man, just nodding my head in a kind of open-eyed trance while the entire group watched.

After Master D finally turned elsewhere, I felt like I was run over by a cosmic locomotive. My mind still was extremely passive and unable to form focused thoughts, and my body was numb and somewhat limp. The trance-inducing abilities of many demon-spirits are quite potent indeed.

What was going on here? Master D had negated everything that the other Universal Masters had been relaying to me for two years. I thought: ‘Didn’t these Masters confer with each other up there in the heavens so that the right hand knew what the left hand was doing? This doesn’t make sense at all. There has to be something else going on here’.

After the program ended, while walking toward the exit one of Ms. S’s assistants ran up to me. He informed me that Ms. S was quite impressed with me, and thought I had a lot of potential for doing New Age light-work. And, if I were interested in pursuing a position in the organization, to contact him. Well, I thought, this is quite a turnabout.

Driving back home, it finally struck me. I really had not given much notice to the four program assistants who regulated logistics around the front platform. Now I remembered – they were each blonde-haired, blue-eyed males, all in their mid 20s to early 30s. Well, I fit that description also. After being discredited in front of my peer group, a miraculous job opportunity knocked at my door. A year later, I confirmed my suspicions while talking with a former aide – Ms. S has quite a fondness for young men of a certain type. Here was another type of seduction indeed.

What had happened is a perfect example of the dynamics of the relationship between a trance channel and the spirit(s) that use the trance channel’s body to work their deeds of deception. In essence, the trance channel ‘sells their soul’ in return for lots of attractive benefits – money, power, fame, and even satisfaction of other desires. In return for providing these things, the spirit gets to take over the reins of the trance channel’s soul. The channel must dance for his new master upon command like a puppet on a string, and for the rest of the time the channel gets to enjoy all the fringe benefits.


My cosmic vision quest: ‘Healing temple one’


It is not at all uncommon for a New Ager to receive a ‘grand cosmic vision’. Inevitably, these visions are quite glorious, exalted, and seemingly world-shaking in importance. Believed to be ‘divine revelations’ received directly from the heavens, they can take many and sundry forms:

For some, it’s a pursuit of high mystical adventure of self-discovery and/or cosmically important planetary healing via New Age rituals done at ‘vortex areas’.

For others, it’s a self-image of cosmic power, mystery, and glory.

For some, it’s an evangelic job with the ‘Spiritual Hierarchy of Light’ – as agents, messengers, teachers, or contactees of this Universal Council.

For others, as it was for me, it’s the manifesting of a New Age retreat or some other type of New Age center of activities and services.

I’d like to insert an observation at this point concerning the material in the rest of this chapter: Almost all of this material will seem so bizarre as to be outlandish, insane, unbelievable, or a combination of all three (in case the material up to this point hasn’t seemed so). The important point to keep in mind is that the following material is quite typical of the inside story of heavily involved New Agers. If you happened to see or hear about Shirley McLaine’s TV mini-series, ‘Out On a Limb’, you will notice a few parallels between her ‘cosmic vision quest’ and my own, though there are certainly many differences as well.

Though the exact content of many New Agers’ beliefs along these lines varies, the depth of the powerful delusion is so profound as to be virtually unimaginable to a non-New Ager. In understanding some of the dangers of this movement, it can be most helpful to see certain insights into the weird New Age mentality from which their convictions and actions arise.

My own cosmic vision quest was certainly grandiose. Though I laugh at this grand vision today, it appeared very real to me at the time, and I pursued it with vigor and enthusiasm.

My vision’s name was ‘Healing Temple One’. This was the guiding force and direction of my life’s work as a New Ager at this time. The Ascended Masters and Commanders of the Intergalactic Space Federation, in overseeing my efforts, kept feeding me detailed ideas and blueprints on a clear and regular basis during my trance-meditations and out-of-body experiences.

Essentially, the vision was that of a veritable spaceship-come down to earth. Not any old 30-foot diameter spaceship, but one to be hundreds of yards in diameter – a macro-ship, or what New Agers would call a ‘mothership’. The New Age concept of a mothership likens it to the hub of a wheel that a host of smaller spaceships rely upon for directives and other supportive assistance.

Healing Temple One (get ready for this) actually was supposed to come down from the intergalactic heavens – a super-spaceship landing on Earth. Also called a ‘temple-ship’ in New Age terms, the Divine Plan was that Healing Temple One would come down to earth accompanied by a substantial host of other space vehicles and motherships all around the world. This act of divine intervention was to bring salvation from a time of acute world turmoil, followed by the establishment of ‘planetary healing’ and a New One-World Order, all to occur sometime before the year 2000.

It is important to note here that not all New Agers would agree fully with the type of scenario illustrated by Healing Temple One. There are many other prophetic variations on the millennial New Age theme. The scenario represented by Healing Temple One does, though, represent a large percentage of those who believe in the existence of UFOs. A solid 70 percent plus of the New Age subculture believe that spaceships will descend en masse from the skies at some point in the relatively near future.

The depth of the New Age brainwashing that this Healing Temple One scenario reflects demonstrates the power of Satan’s demons in back of this branch of New Age thinking. You would be surprised at the millions of New Agers in all walks of life who believe the Healing Temple One scenario or some variation thereof.

Let me quote from select parts of the 8-page prospectus for Healing Temple One that I wrote:

‘The time has now arrived to establish temples and academies of the sacred sciences …..

‘On many levels, mankind is approaching a gateway of transformation leading to a New One-World Order, an era of quantum advancements both in man’s own consciousness and in high technology that are breathtaking to consider ….

‘Both the Spiritual Hierarchy of Light and the Intergalactic Federation are to use Healing Temple One as a primary operational base through which to do the high-level Light-work that is needed at this crucial time in Earth’s history…

‘Healing Temple One forms a gateway between the heavens and the Earth, thereby catalyzing the revelation of scientific knowledge and technologies that will revolutionize the entire world’.

This is representative of a fairly standard variety of New Age thinking occurring with many believers in UFOs.

A futuristic view of New Age science was an integral part of this Healing Temple One vision. In the ‘Golden Aquarian Age’ technological wonders and miracles brought to Earth by Healing Temple One were supposed literally to remake the world – a grand Second Genesis. The prospectus claimed: ‘The revolutionary technologies to be used and further developed in this project lay the foundation and form a gateway through which the heavens and the Earth are united in one vision, one reality, one divine manifestation’.

Let me draw a couple of examples of the futuristic technologies from the Healing Temple One prospectus:

‘Light-body activation therapy’ involves a sequence of treatments through a series of high-tech activation chambers …. Envision, for example, an activation chamber humming with harmonically elevating sounds, bathing the spirit, mind, and body with tranquility. As the sounds gradually increase in intensity, a stream of multi-colored light-beams are projected into each chakra-center [9] in rapid pulses of computer-orchestrated colors. After this is completed, the body is gradually freed from gravity through the action of gyroscopic crystal and anti-gravity devices until it is floating inches off the therapy table. Computer-generated holographic energy-fields are projected via laser-beams into each chakra, transforming them into crystalline spheres of Light’.

Another super-high-tech healing chamber was designed as a New Age ‘Fountain of Youth’;

‘A Pyramidal Cellular Harmonizing Chamber …. This long-sought ‘Fountain of Youth’ is based upon the integrated use of the sacred sciences of pyramidology, crystallography, anti-gravity technologies, radionics, sonics, laser science, intelligent supercomputers, and electro-medicine’.

High cosmic-tech comes to Earth – the primary theme of New Age science. A New Age brings a New Science.

In back of all these enticements lay the lies and delusionary powers of demons – seducing the mind into an ultra-futuristic ‘golden calf’ idolatry.


The ascension chamber


Over thousands of hours of research and development, I even built my own one-room prototype of a part of Healing Temple One called the ‘Ascension Chamber’. It was certainly a very scaled-down version of the billion-dollar visions of Healing Temple One. No supercomputers, no electro-medicine, no anti-gravity technology. Though primitive compared to grand future-science prophecies, the Ascension Chamber was still fairly elaborate. Its stated intent was to ‘use sacred science to activate New Age higher consciousness’. In essence, it claimed to: ‘Use New Age science to accelerate spiritual growth so that in a matter of hours, many lifetimes of evolvement can occur, like a time-lapse photography sequence. You no longer need to trudge slowly along your spiritual path like an ox-cart along a dirt road. This was for the old age – this is the New Age. Why not take the high-tech spiritual fast-track to instant enlightenment?’

The Ascension Chamber room was filled with hundreds of crystals in geometric configurations, and close to a hundred pyramids hanging from the ceiling and walls. The purpose for this supposedly was to ‘create a concentrated energy field of ultra-high vibrations’. Lasers, magnets, specialized electronic devices, computers, and aromatic agents were added in specific ways to help ‘amplify, enhance, and control the energy field’. Further, an orchestrated multi-media presentation of rotating multi-colored designs, films of occult symbols, mystical New Age music, and swirling colors that filled the entire room (somewhat similar to a laser show) all were combined to induce a trance-state in the recipient. This type of trance-induction or hypnosis deeply affected many of the recipients. Many occult-based New Age practices also were applied to induce mystical and out-of-body experiences, as well as channeling experiences.

There were also some sophisticated ‘brain-drive’ machines. Such high-tech devices all are the rage in the New Age today. Having names such as MC2 , David I, Alpha-Stim, Neuro-Pep, Bio-Pacer, Isis, Somatron, and Graham Potentializer, they are readily available, ranging in price from $300 to $6,000.

Advertisements for these various mind-power machines are one of the hottest items in national New Age magazines, especially since late 1987/early 1988. Most of these devices use goggles (for flashing light input) and headphones (for sound input), and have control consoles that coordinate the light and sound in order to induce controlled trance-states and psychedelic-like experiences. They are very popular due to their deeply relaxing effects in addition to the dazzling psychedelic experiences. Here we have high technology’s latest contribution to the New Age Movement – machines that control and pleasurize the mind with power, precision, and efficiency. It’s similar to Aldous Huxley’s Brave New World.

Also used in the Ascension Chamber were subliminal cassette tapes and videos. In short, subliminal technology inserts messages into the mind of the individual without the person being aware of the mind-programming process. This highly developed modern technology has been around for many years. In the process, it also has become quite sophisticated, so much so that it has blossomed into a real high-tech hazard. What I see today that I did not understand then is that even though the stated purposes of most all subliminal cassette tapes are apparently positive and benign (e.g., losing weight, gaining self-confidence, overcoming fears and phobias, etc.), the method of ‘unzipping’ the mind without the person being aware of the process as well as the many potential misuses of such a technology (on individual and mass scales) hold many serious dangers best avoided.

In short, the Ascension Chamber was a modernized form of white magic and sorcery applied toward a trance-inducing, hypnotizing procedure for inducing mystical experiences, out-of-body experiences, and ‘reprogramming the mind with positive and evolutionarily advanced thoughts’. While today I do not know if all the crystals and pyramids really made a difference, the trance-inducing methods (New Age music, subliminals, brain drive machines, films of occult symbols, and swirling light-shows) did indeed produce powerful experiences and effects in a large percentage of the treatment recipients.

Over the years, my intense interest in this field of New Age sacred science led me to set up a large teaching and research complex containing five different types of Ascension Chambers, each separate chamber having an elaborate design for performing different functions for ‘activating the Light-body’ or ‘communicating with the Great White Brotherhood’.

With deep regret, I must report that over a thousand sessions were given over a period of three years. In fact, the Ascension Chamber and its four other variations proved exceptionally popular among certain New Age circles of Santa Fe, and it was actually one of my ‘claims to fame’ on the national scene.

What I realize today that totally was veiled to me while enmeshed in webs of delusion is that such chambers (this one, and others similar to it that are available in the New Age today) can be DEMON’S DENS of temptation, ensnarement, delusion-weaving, and brainwashing.

While in a trance-state, a person is highly vulnerable to demonic intrusions that perpetrate their dark web-weaving. Behind the modernized New Age gloss, Biblically forbidden occult-based principles and practices are at the foundation of New Age phenomenon like Healing Temple One and the Ascension Chamber.

I testify in humility and repentance today. They are harmful. They are an abomination. They are a fast-rising New Age phenomenon to be avoided like the plague in the years ahead.


A meteoric New Age career rise


While in the midst of pursuing my Healing Temple One vision and doing Ascension Chamber sessions, an entirely new level of national exposure was opening up. National seminar tours that followed on the heels of my first book, Windows of Light, met with good response, but now I was on Satan’s fast-track for promotion into the big time during this next sequence.

In late 1985, my second book – The Crystal Connection: A Guide-book for Personal and Planetary Ascension – was published and released by the same mainstream publisher, Harper and Row. About 400 pages in length, it set the standard in the thriving field of crystals. By this time crystals were ‘hot’, were ‘buzzing’. One of the top three national New Age magazines, East-West Journal, reviewed the book and pronounced it ‘light-years beyond the rest’.

The book was marketed as: ‘An essential reference, The Crystal Connection is a landmark achievement in the field of crystal-based sacred science’.

With a follow-up national seminar tour, speaking to enthusiastic audiences of many hundreds in each city, I rode the crest of a wave of crystal popularity. Though there were over a thousand crystal teachers by now in cities large and small, I was widely held to be one of the top three international authorities in the field. One of the others (who is still active in the field) is named Marcel Vogel, Ph. D., who is a retired senior research scientist at IBM, claiming over 60 patents in his distinguished career. At a later date, I was on the television program, ‘20/20’ in a segment on the ‘crystal craze’.

By now I also was offering a variety of week-long advanced study programs at my New Mexico headquarters. The primary course offered was called the ‘Advanced Crystal Energetics Training Program’ – a course for advanced studies in crystal power and sacred science.

You might be surprised at some of the attendees – an astrophysicist, a noted solar scientist, scientists in several other disciplines, many chiropractors, dentists, some Fortune 500 businessmen, some M.D.s, many holistic health practitioners, numerous nurses, and quite a few highly successful professionals of other varieties, including a couple of media celebrities.

Other week-long courses offered included: ‘The Sacred Science Program’, ‘Advanced Sacred Science Intensive’, ‘Vortex Visitations’, and ‘The Keys of Enoch Seminar’. In effect, my teaching and research center became a type of college of sorts, training people to begin or further develop professional careers in the New Age.

Invitations to national-level New Age expos and retreats were coming in.

I had a third book – 500 pages in length – in the offing.

At this point so many opportunities were opening up that I could write my own success ticket. I had hit the big time, and the horizons of my career looked spectacular.

Yes, I was riding high, but there would be a price to pay for all this latter – a painful price indeed. I was a rising New Age star. But the meteoric rise eventually would come to a burning halt. Satan always exacts his pound of flesh, sooner or later. This I learned well in the later stages of my season of New Age success.


A picture of a modern-day New Ager


As explained earlier, not all New Agers can be easily picked out of a crowd. Some you can tell a mile away by the crystal pendants, rainbow clothes, and ‘Visualize World Peace’ bumper stickers on their VW busses. But just as many others appear as normal as any other mainstream American.

I’d like to provide a quick thumbnail sketch of myself during my New Age years as I outwardly appeared then. The main point is that there were few obvious external indicators that I was involved in the movement. You can’t necessarily tell that a person is a New Ager by his outer wrapping.

Home was classically middle-American – clean, tidy, regular-looking furniture, etc. There were no metaphysical pictures on the walls, no bevy of crystals everywhere you looked, no strange incense smell in the air, no New Age paraphernalia lying about. Walking into the home, a person would have few external indications of my New Age involvements.

I gave seminars dressed in high-quality suits and ties, and gave my week-long advanced classes in professional apparel.

I had medium-length hair and no external indications of New Age-iness (though I wore a crystal pendant inside the shirt and carried other crystals in a pocket).

To every outward indication, I was a successful professional in some field (what a lot of neighbors thought). All this was not done as a conscious deception at all. Rather, it was the result of a lifestyle inherited from childhood plus a strong commitment to bringing a highly professional approach to my career and to reach as broad an audience as possible.

Many people would be surprised at the number of closet New Agers there are throughout every level of American society, from the business office to the hospitals to the laboratories. By all external indicators, an observer would find it very difficult to discern that such a person is a New Ager. The point here being: New Agers who blend into the mainstream cultural landscape are everywhere in our society.

I also would like to point out here, in a parenthetical statement, that not all New Age activities are cults. Some certainly are, but a solid percentage of New Age organizations, seminars, etc. are definitely not cults. Most of these operate along the lines of regular businesses in terms of how they offer their products and services.

My own business was a case in point. I am an exceptionally private person, and greatly love solitude. The more well-known I became, the more people would want to attach themselves to me and my work in one way or another. Vicki and I wanted no part of starry-eyed hangers-on or advantage-seeking opportunists. Over the years of being involved in the Santa Fe and national New Age scenes, we developed an ingrained skepticism and somewhat jaded view of the veritable circus of New Age people and their trips.

Living remotely outside of Santa Fe, we created a rather well-developed system for keeping an arm’s length distance even from people we liked. I met many leaders, teachers, and businesspeople who had a similar approach as myself. I mention all this to emphasize the fact that in discerning whether something is New Age, it is helpful to keep in mind that not all New Age phenomena are cults.


Tripping the ‘Light’ Fantastic


In the midst of my New Age career rise, while so much outwardly was demanding my attention, my inner journey took on new magnitudes of intensity. With each passing month, I found myself going into states of extended solitude whenever time allowed.

If I had an evening off, for example, it would be spent alone, having trance-meditation and out-of-body experiences [10] and receiving knowledge from my spirit guides in the Ascension Chamber well into the late evening and early morning. The mind-blowing cosmic power, the glittering good feelings, and the amazing revelations experienced during these times completely captivated me. While holding down the responsibilities of my New Age career, this overriding desire to travel deeply within the heavenly spirit-world became a virtual obsession.

Two events resulted from this. One is detailed in the next chapter section, and the other is that Vicki and I decided to divorce. While ours was an unusual passionless marriage, at least I was around as a best friend and companion as well as co-worker. Now, I was becoming more and more absorbed into the spirit-world, leaving Vicki with little-to-no companionship or emotional support. So, an amicable divorce was effected so that she was free to pursue her interests and I was free to pursue what I perceived as an ‘inner voyage to the ultimate supernatural realms of Infinite Intelligence’.

In New Age morality, there are no prohibitions against divorce. Whether a married couple stays together is based mainly upon ‘soul growth compatibility’. That is, if after a time two souls who are married start to grow in different directions, then it is appropriate, if desired, to dissolve the marriage and find other more spiritually compatible soul-mates.

Though our friendship was a bit strained for a couple months over this, Vicki and I remained the best of friends and continued in our dedication to do light-work together. Feeling the divorce was our own private business and being reluctant to severely disappoint our parents, we kept it to ourselves until Vicki met her new husband two years later.


Out-of-body leads to almost out-of-mind


In my New Age days, I was quite adept at inducing and expanding the limits of mystical and out-of-body experiences – this was one of the big reasons for much of my success. I would mount myself up with all kinds of New Age inventions and crystals, and then thrust myself into trance-induced higher states of consciousness. It would feel like I was being transported by winged angels and loving forces to an incredible variety of dazzling extra-natural domains. The sensation of my spirit being released from Earthbound, bodily restrictions and freed to roam the unlimited expanses of the cosmos was breathtaking. Here it was, the freedom, the light, and the truth that I had been searching for all my life. I had found the keys that opened the heavens before my very eyes.

But the ultimate seduction had overtaken me: What I thought was ‘up’ was actually ‘down’. What I thought was ‘heaven’ was actually ‘hell’ wrapped in Satan’s finest counterfeit garments. What I thought were Ascended Masters, extraterrestrials, and angels were actually demons in cunning, glowing disguises.

The Bible states: “Put on the full armor of God, that you may be able to stand firm against the schemes of the devil. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the powers, against the world forces of this darkness, against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places” (Eph. 6:11,12). And: “Satan disguises himself as an angel of light. Therefore it is not surprising if his servants also disguise themselves as servants of righteousness; whose end shall be according to their deeds” (2 Cor. 11:14,15).

Yes, I actually was getting a guided tour of some of the ‘spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms’ by demons masquerading as ‘servants of righteousness’. Though some of my experiences may have been just imaginary fantasy, I am full convinced that most of them were ventures into some of Satan’s most beautifully deceiving spirit-domains of glittery bondage masquerading as our Heavenly Father’s kingdom of heaven.

The popular Christian book, The Beautiful Side of Evil, by Johanna Michaelsen, is very aptly named. Darkness can have an outer covering, so to speak, of luminosity that can appear to be inexpressibly beautiful. The power of darkness can feel wonderfully beauteous, too. Satan and his demonic legions are masterful counterfeiters who can make darkness appear to be light, untruth appear to be truth and hate appear to be love. The luminosity of darkness can be so bright that it bedazzles to the point of blindness and mesmerizes to the point of brainwashing. This is exactly what happened to me, and what is happening today to all those involved in the New Age Movement.

One night, while in the Ascension Chamber, my spirit was roaming some of the farthest reaches of ‘heavenly light’ that I had ever perceived. That night I had an experience that would change my life forever.

During this experience I was surrounded by a virtually overwhelming luminosity – it was as if I was looking straight into the sun. Waves of bliss radiated through my spirit. I was totally captivated by the power.

Suddenly, another force stepped in. It took me by complete surprise. In the twinkling of an eye, it was like a supernatural hand had taken me behind the scenes of the experience that I was having. I was taken behind the outer covering of the dazzling luminosity and there saw something that left me literally shaking for a full week.

What I saw was the face of devouring darkness! Behind the glittering outer facade of beauty lay a massively powerful, wildly churning face of absolute hatred and unspeakable abominations – the face of demons filled with the power of Satan.

For a moment that seemed like an eternity, I realized that I was in major league trouble, for this devouring force was now closing in on me.

In absolute, stark terror I felt powerless to stop what appeared to be inevitable doom. Horror filled me like a consuming flame.

Then, miraculously, the same supernatural hand as before delivered me from the jaws of this consuming darkness, and hours later, I found myself waking up the next morning in the Ascension Chamber. It felt like I had a peaceful nights sleep but, upon waking, the horror of the past night’s experience had left me terribly shaken. My mind was racing uncontrollably in all directions at what felt like the speed of light. My body was shaking involuntarily, sometimes rather violently. This nightmare continued without respite for a full week. I thought that I was going stark raving mad. In a month’s time, though, my grave situation gradually settled down to some semblance of sanity and normalcy.

What I didn’t know at the time was that it was JESUS who had intervened by His greater grace into my life. At this point, though, I only knew that some force greater than that of the devouring darkness had done two things: 1) it had shown me the real face of the New Age ‘heavens’ and ‘angels’ that I was so deeply involved with, and 2) it had delivered me from certain doom.

What I knew at this time was that I had made some serious errors in my New Age involvements. I also knew that if those errors weren’t corrected that I might face the same horrific experience again. And quite possibly the next time I wouldn’t get away.

An openness to reconsider my New Age involvements arose in me out of desperate need. This openness would help me, over the following months, to find a Way, a Truth, and a Life that I had never known before – Jesus Christ.

But this journey was not to be an easy one. For Satan does not relinquish those he has in bondage without a struggle, as I was about to find out.


Notes to chapter two


1. ‘Power objects’ have a long history of occult uses. Ranging from talismans and crystals to eagle feathers and ‘magic wands’, all types of witches, wizards, alchemists, medicine men, shamans, and other occult figures have used ‘power objects’. These objects, when ritually consecrated, are supposed to contain or attract different types of occult power that can be applied in occult pursuits.

2. The concept of ‘crystal power’ is discussed in more detail in chapter 7. Essentially, though, on the one hand there is no conclusive scientific evidence to confirm this strange notion. On the other hand, the use of crystal as ‘power objects’ has a long history, and millions of New Agers have had the subjective experience of some type of occult energy amplification and focusing when involving crystals in New Age practices. Wishful thinking? Wild fantasies? The placebo effect? Whatever is going on, the point here is simply to note that New Agers do believe in ‘crystal power’ (however unsubstantiated).

3. The ‘third eye’ is an occult belief that a center of psychic powers is located at the forehead between the two (physical) eyes.

4. ‘White magic’ is a branch of witchcraft that claims to be based on peaceful, positive occult principles: but which is strictly forbidden in the Bible (Deut. 18:9-12).

5. The New Age commonly refers to the ‘Light-body’. This term also is used when referring to the ‘Higher Self’. Both these phrases basically mean ‘New Age higher consciousness’, supposedly a more ‘enlightened’ state of being.

6. Often, New Agers refer to the ‘Divine Plan’, or simply as the ‘Plan’ in referring to the sequence of events overseen by the ‘Great White Brotherhood’ leading into the New Age.

7. Billy Graham, Angels: God’s Secret Agents (Waco, TX: Word Books, 1986), p. 20.

8. For more discussion on the topic of UFOs, plus quotes from other Christian authorities, see chapter 5, ‘New Age Sorceries and Idolatries’.

9. ‘Chakras’ are an occult concept asserting that there are seven major ‘energy centers’ in the etheric human anatomy along the spine that control all aspects of human functioning.

10. See chapter 5, for an explanation of ‘out-of-body experiences’.



Chapter three



The testimony I offer in this chapter of my life bears yet another lost soul’s great rejoicing in receiving the Good News. Yet upon conversion, my story did not become an immediate ‘and he lived happily ever after…’. Would that it were so easy, some type of classic storybook ending. To jump the gun a bit, yes, I received Jesus as my Lord and personal Savior. And as all reborn Christians know, this is a glorious new beginning that words can only begin to describe. I had been freed from Satan’s bondage.

But as I was to find out shortly in my walk with Jesus, struggles, persecutions, and mistakes were still to come.

Billy Graham’s observation really rang true in my own experience: ‘In our attempts to share the faith we have given the impression that, once you have accepted Christ as Savior and Lord, your problems are over. That is not true. Becoming ‘new’ in Christ is a wonderful beginning, but it isn’t the end of pain or problems in our lives. It is the beginning of our facing up to them. Being a Christian involves a lifetime of hard work, dedicated study, and difficult decisions’ [1].

What I found as a struggling Christian was that the Good Shepherd takes care of His sheep, even through the ‘valley of the shadow of death’, even if they stray for a time, and even as they err and repent. My path as a newborn Christian was a most humbling and stumbling one – a very far cry from the glory days of New Age leadership. Time after time, the Holy Spirit would convict my heart and show me my errors, and I would come to the Lord on bended knee, asking His forgiveness. Sometimes, I honestly feared that He would not forgive me, sinner that I am, but each time coming before Him in repentance, I found a loving Shepherd and my best Friend. He would rebuke and then raise me up in His arms, salve the wounds, give comfort and guidance, provide restoration, and send me on my way like a loving parent. I had never had such a personal relationship before. No matter what hardships and struggles I went through then (and now), this unbreakable, eternal relationship is the source of my strength, hope, and life everlasting. This is my testimony.

Through all the events that were about to transpire, these words of the apostle Paul came to have great personal meaning: ‘Neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord’ (Rom. 8:38,39).


A lost soul goes searching: the journey continues


Badly shaken by my brush with ‘spiritual wickedness in heavenly places’ [2], I set about a sweeping re-evaluation of my New Age philosophy and activities. There were obviously some major flaws here.

The first thing I did was to declare a personal moratorium on all mystical excursions into the spirit realms. I was not going to jeopardize myself like that again.

I also had to sort out the shocking realization that the light that appeared so heavenly was really a counterfeit front for a devouring darkness. How could this be? Could all my cherished spirit guides’ guidance, all the wonderful mystical experiences, all the sophisticated books that I had read, all the enlightened ones of Eastern mysticism, and all my respected New Age friends’ experiences be based on a grand delusion?

Was it just me? Was it the entire New Age movement? Or was it just select parts of the movement? This was all so mind-boggling.

Everything that I was as a New Ager: everything that I knew I had found, I had accomplished, was now totally up in the air. All things New Age were subject to intense scrutiny in an entirely different way than I had ever scrutinized them before.

In retrospect, I see that this was the key to opening up a new possibility of accepting Jesus Christ into my life – the willingness to question the fundamental assumptions of the New Age, and to be willing to really see untruth if it were there to be found.

Most all New Agers are really not willing to admit the possibility of falseness in their fundamental beliefs. That was certainly true of me. But because of my harrowing experience, and what I learned from it, I was ready to admit the possibility of deception.

The demands of a busy New Age career continued to occupy a large portion of my daily life. There were commitments to be met, responsibilities to fulfil, and bills to be paid. Still feeling rather weak and shaken after being bedridden for a week, I managed to gather enough strength to get on with the work at hand, even as all my questions and doubts echoed within. Feeling like the walking wounded, I made it through the next weeks while recovering strength and basic stability.

After regaining strength, I continued giving lectures, seminars, and programs, but began to have a different perception of the material and the people. While speaking, part of me would be questioning everything coming out of my mouth. Some areas started to ring hollow, though it was just a vague feeling at the time.

As for the people, their rampant flakiness and self-centeredness that I had already noticed for years started to become more and more irritating. With each passing week, a sense slowly grew that things in the New Age and myself were definitely not right.

During this time, at home a quirky change was coming over Vicki. (Though divorced by now, for financial and family reasons we lived under the same roof – an acceptable arrangement by New Age standards). On Sunday mornings, I would be making brunch for myself, and there she would be watching Christian televangelists for an hour or so. The funny thing was that it seemed like she was listening to them seriously.

You must understand, a real New Ager wouldn’t be caught dead watching televangelists, much less taking them seriously. To the New Age, Christians generally are regarded as ‘old age’, people who have yet to awaken to the ‘higher realities of New Age consciousness’ [3]. In fact, I must confess that I teased her to no end when she would repeat this scene week after week. All she would say was: ‘Why don’t you just listen to them for a while with an open mind? They’re making some sense to me’. I scoffed at her and thought she was being quite weird.

About four or five weeks into this scenario, the thought came to me: ‘If you’re really open-minded, as you claim to be, then you should at least give this a fair chance – it couldn’t hurt’.

So one Sunday I sat down with Vicki and watched two Christian televangelists for an hour, switching the TV channels back and forth. I noticed myself becoming somewhat interested and my appetite was whetted for more.

With each passing week, I became a little less resistant and a little more interested. Scanning through the available channels, I found a definite preference for some religious programs over others.

At the same time, I started to study the Bible with fresh eyes. In New Age philosophy, the Holy Bible is accepted, but only conditionally, it being taken only as one scripture among many others. Also, I began to see that New Age philosophy picks and chooses what it likes and doesn’t like from the pages of the Bible. It also re-interprets these select passages with a metaphysical New Age slant. Now I tried to put as many of my preconceptions as possible aside, and started to study the Holy Bible to see what it revealed on its own terms.

The more of the Bible I read, especially the Gospels, the more I saw that the teachings of Jesus plainly were at variance with New Age philosophy on many key points. A few of these issues included:


· The sinful nature of man (the New Age says that man is inherently perfect and a ‘god’).

· Man’s need for redemption through Jesus Christ (the New Age says that there is no need for redemption).

· The final judgment (the New Age holds that each person is ultimately his own judge, and that the ‘lake of fire’ is a myth).

· The personal and visible Second Coming of Jesus Christ (the New Age maintains that another ‘Christ’ [not Jesus Christ] and/or ‘Christ consciousness’ will lead the world into the New Age).


The more I read the Bible and recalled some of my Christian theology classes from college, the more I saw that the philosophies of Christianity and the New Age had gaping, irreconcilable differences between them. New Age thought claims to embrace the essential truths of all religions and all scriptures into a greater whole.

What I saw now was that the Bible was most definitely not compatible with this ‘greater whole’, and that New Age philosophy has to do a lot of very selective hand-picking of pieces and snippets of the Bible in order to assimilate Biblical Christianity under the New Age umbrella.

The New Age claimed to embrace the Bible, but I saw that the Bible just doesn’t fit into the New Age. Logically, both sides could not be right. One side was right, and the other side was wrong.

Now I had to decide which side was right.

On a strictly intellectual level, this is an incredibly difficult question to answer. Without an assumed absolute standard of values, philosophical argumentation is relativistic and equivocal. In fact, the more I thought about all the issues involved, the more confused I became. I didn’t know how this was going to come to a conclusion.

As several months of watching selected Christian televangelists passed, an increasingly alarming situation arose. By this time I had regained my strength, but for no apparent reason, I felt a growing deterioration within myself. Psychologically, there was an erosion of positive emotions, self-confidence, self-image, and other vital areas.

Spiritually, I sensed an inner hollowness growing to unprecedented degrees. Overall, it felt like life was being drained out of me, and that I had no control over the forces in motion. In some ways it was like a spiritual ‘cancer’ progressively filling my being and causing deep corrosion from the inside out.

Frantically I tried to apply any and every ‘advanced’ New Age technique to try to stem the tide of these forces. Try as I might to use crystal power, healing through visualization and affirmation techniques, ‘create your own reality’ methods, chakra-system balancing, polarity therapy, and a host of other techniques, nothing was working to stem the wave of inner deterioration. Things were getting very scary. To not be in control of the situation, and to have exhausted almost every possibility I knew of, was becoming acutely alarming.

In fear, I had turned to that in which I felt most knowledgeable and secure – New Age practices.

One day Vicki, who was very concerned about my situation, suggested that I pray as the Christians do. Well, this was a possibility that had not yet crossed my mind. So, with a sincerity born of deep need, I prayed as best I knew how. These SOS prayers were along the lines of ‘If you’re there, Jesus, I really need your help’. I felt no discernible response, but continued these prayers several times a day for a couple of weeks.

Much to my dismay, the condition only worsened. It now became quite clear that some type of negative spirit-force was in back of all this, and that it definitely had the upper hand. I only could watch helplessly as it felt like this spirit-force was taking more and more control of me, draining my energy as I became entrapped in its tightening tentacles.

Had my spirit guides and the Ascended Masters and the Space Brothers abandoned me? Or, a virtually unthinkable thought, were all these apparently loving, enlightened spirit-beings actually counterfeit fronts for the consuming darkness that I saw before?

Over the next week gruesome thoughts and visions started to infiltrate my mind and dreams. Resistance to the pressures exerted by this spirit-force was waning. Even my vision and other sense perceptions were being distorted. I had heard of demonic possession, and even had seen a few cases, but had never considered the possibility that it might happen to me. At this point, I knew that this was exactly what was occurring.

My SOS prayers took on an increasingly acute urgency. I was fighting a losing battle, and knew it. It was only a matter of time before all will-power and strength was drained. For days I was in an unspeakable living nightmare. Vicki prayed, too, but nothing seemed to come of it.

All through these desperate times I continued to watch a few select Sunday televangelists, and found more and more of their essential Gospel message to hit home in my heart. Toward the end of this period I had to spend increasing amounts of time in bed, just trying to fend off the waves of darkness invading my being. Often passing the hours by watching TV to take my mind off the anguish, I also came upon a couple of weekday Christian tele-ministries.

Up until this point when the Christians would ask the viewers to pray with them, I felt self-conscious and somewhat silly, and would focus my attention elsewhere until they were through.

One day, while watching the 700 Club, I was in awful shape. Pat Robertson called on unsaved viewers who were in need of deliverance from bondage to pray a prayer with him. I was in such a state now that I was way past feeling self-conscious or silly.

There was something about the way Robertson was speaking and looking into the camera that felt like he was talking directly to me. Such a sensation never had happened before, and there was a clarity and conviction that came upon me as I got up from the bed and knelt on the floor with my hands on top of the TV. Somehow I knew with absolute certainty that this was very real, and it was my chance to get out of this maddening bondage.

I don’t remember the exact words repeated along with Robertson, but I do have a vivid recollection of what transpired.

As the prayer progressed I felt the hand of Jesus reach deep into my innermost being with an almighty power that was both piercing to the core yet completely gentle at the same time. By the end of the prayer I was so filled to overflowing with the power of His presence that a powerful but gentle quaking in the Spirit happened in every fiber of my being. Weeping uncontrollably, I gently dropped to the floor. As this happened I felt the conviction of the Holy Spirit pierce my heart and wept in acute repentance as the quaking in the Spirit continued for almost an hour. Continuously, prayer poured forth from my lips in repentance and in praise of His majesty and saving grace. I had never prayed like this before – it was like an effortless stream of sweet water pouring through me in rejoicing and honoring Christ Jesus as my Lord and personal Savior.

The Lord had cut through my horrific Satanic bondage and set me free as He received me into His Body as He washed my scarlet sins as white as snow. I was captive, but now I was free.

With an absolute certainty, I knew that this was what I had been looking for all my life and never had found till now. This made even the most powerful mystical New Age experience completely pale in comparison of our Heavenly Father’s infinitely greater power and glory. Satan’s glowing counterfeit fineries are as cheap, filthy rags compared to the Truth.


A time of restoration and great rejoicing


For the next week or so I cancelled all work and enjoyed a ‘honeymoon’ with Jesus. Words beg description of the inexpressible joys, loving restoration, and sweet communion of this time.

Much happened during this week of rejoicing. A prodigal son had returned home, destitute and unworthy, but was met with loving arms and a wonderful feast. It was hard to fathom the greater love of Jesus that can forgive so much sin.

Continually, this Bible passage kept coming to mind, reminding me: “I am the way, and the truth, and the life; no one comes to the Father, but through Me” (John 14:6).

One morning I opened the Bible and prayed to be led to an appropriate passage. Turning to Revelation 22:12-15, I read:

“Behold, I am coming quickly, and My reward is with Me, to render to every man according to what he has done. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the first and the last, the beginning and the end. Blessed are those who wash their robes, that they may have the right to the tree of life, and may enter by the gates into the city. Outside are the dogs and the sorcerers and the immoral persons and the murderers and the idolaters, and everyone who loves and practices lying”.

Impressed in my heart, I knew that had I remained in the New Age I would have been one of those condemned to be outside the gates along with all manner of other sinners, to be cast into the “lake of fire” and experience the “weeping and gnashing of teeth” [4]. This passage also moved me with tremendous compassion for those still in the New Age who are bound by chains they are completely unaware of. So many of these people were my friends, my own brethren.

I also felt profoundly, as so many other Christians have, that today’s times are the end times, and that the personal and visible return of Jesus is near, though we know not the day or hour.

I could not bear the thought of the multitudes of well-intentioned New Age people who I knew were walking a path leading to destruction – they were as blissfully deluded as I had been before my conversion to the Christian faith.

Who would warn them? In my 15 years as a New Ager I had come across only one person witnessing to me of Jesus Christ. Having been in most major cities giving lectures and having kept my finger on the pulse of the national-level New Age Movement for the previous five years, I was not aware of a single Christian outreach program formulated to take the Christian witness directly into the New Age subculture. To make matters worse, a New Ager converting to the Christian faith is an extreme rarity – I never personally had met one in 15 years. Satan’s deluding power in the movement is powerful indeed. The more I thought about this, the more the feeling arose that I could not turn my back on people involved. My heart became heavily burdened with the task of doing the best I knew how to bring the Good News to the New Age.

While getting a handle on all that had happened and fervently studying the Bible, another wonderful event happened. Vicki also came to accept Jesus into her life. Perhaps this was catching. Praise the Lord!






Looking back on my 15 long, intensive years in the New Age, it is clear how Satan tempted a naïve, searching teenager, seduced a well-meaning, but blinded truth-seeker, and bound a man in chains with each step of a meteoric New Age career. The tragic poignancy of this entire scenario is that I truly believed through all this that the New Age did indeed hold ultimate truth and spiritual supremacy.

Not until I had a dramatic encounter with the devouring face of darkness behind all of the beautiful counterfeits did I begin to suspect that Satan is the author of the New Age. The saddest part of all is that millions and millions of New Agers today haven’t a clue to the fact that they are caught up in a masterful, powerful delusion [10] that leads only to the lake of fire [11]. Today, my heart still breaks when I think of all the people, young and old, who are flocking toward the false light of the New Age like moths to a flame.

I marvel today at the amazing grace that saved a sinner such as me. Certainly I did not merit salvation in the least. But the Lord gave His victory to me anyway through His greater grace. People still involved in the New Age desperately need to hear the Christian witness. Souls hang in the balance. There is a huge New Age ‘wilderness area’ within our own society with people in grave trouble who are not even aware of it.



Notes to chapter three


1. Billy Graham, Approaching Hoofbeats: The Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse (Waco, TX: Word Books, 1983), p. 93.

2. Ephesians 6:12.

3. See chapter 9, ‘How Do New Agers View Christians?’ for more on this subject.

4. Matthew 13:42.

5. Jude 1:3.

6. See chapter 9 ‘How do New Agers View Christians?’ for more information on this subject.


8. See bibliography for a list of Christian books critiquing the New Age.

9. See chapter 10, ‘Perspectives on Helping Others to Get Out of New Age Involvements’, for more information on this topic.

10. 2 Thessalonians 2:11.

11. Revelation 20:15.



Randall Baer, Inside the New Age Nightmare, Published by Huntington House, 1989, pages 1-65,75,77


NOTE: The very day that Randall Baer's book hit the bookstores, he was killed in a very questionable car crash.