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Birth and Education. -- I was
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All that I
remember about my early life is that when I was about four years old, I was
taken to the home of my father's people who lived in that town and was sent
to school. |
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When six
years old, my good mother, who was a devout Jewess, born and reared in |
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Returning to Orthodoxy. -- When I
had finished my studies at the lyceum my father insisted upon my returning to
him, at which time I was to begin preparation for becoming a Jewish teacher.
His plans were very simple. I was to marry the only daughter of a wealthy
Jewish family who would support me and the possible future family, for at
least seven years, while I was to give myself to the mastery of Hebrew and
the Talmud, as well as to the Rabbinical social exigencies. It was not an
easy nor congenial task and my heart revolted against it, especially against
the strict Jewish, or perhaps I may say pharisaical customs and habits
prevailing. I could not accustom myself to them. For instance, no match could
be lighted on a Sabbath Day -- no handkerchief could be carried in one's
pockets, and so on. The strict orthodoxy of the Jews in |
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Matrimonial Speculation. -- Not
until after much insisting was I allowed to see the girl my father, or rather
the matrimonial agent, had chosen for me to marry. I found her to be a child
of perhaps not more than twelve years of age. Needless to say my whole soul
revolted against the business, and I determined not to have any part in the
affair. However, it was very difficult for me to escape, as my father,
suspecting my determination, watched me closely. It was only after every
preparation had been made for the wedding-feast that I was able to run away.
I was only about fifteen years of age and I have never seen the face of my
father nor did I ever learn what became of the girl. |
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Alone in the World. -- I
wandered about some cities and villages in |
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I crossed
the frontier that night and reached Koenigsberg where I found letters and
money enough to take me to |
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Arriving in |
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In |
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Hearing the Gospel for the First Time.
-- One Sabbath afternoon while passing through Whitechapel Street I met a
missionary to the Jews -- a converted Jew -- who invited me to hear him
preach at the Mildmay Mission to the Jews on the 53rd chapter of Isaiah. Now,
I was particularly interested in this certain chapter of the Bible because of
an incident that had happened to me while in Poland, and most likely had it
not been for this peculiar incident I would not have gone to this meeting.
The incident as it occurred was as follows: |
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My father
was celebrating the feast of the Tabernacle, living in a tent that he had put
up close to our home. He had a number of visitors staying with him and as I
had passed the age of thirteen and was considered a full-fledged Jew, I was
allowed to stay and listen to the talks and discussions. Upon the table were
several books and among them was a well used copy of the Prophets.
Accidentally, for the question had never been brought to my attention, I
opened book and was reading the 53rd Chapter of Isaiah. There were some
comments on the margin and one remark seemed to loom out above all the other
scribblings, viz.: "To whom does the Prophet refer in this Chapter?"
Innocently I turned to my father and asked him the very same question. He
looked at me quite surprised and a profound quietness seemed to come over
him. Not being answered I repeated the question, when my father snatched the
book out of my hand and deliberately slapped me in the face. I felt quite
chagrined and humiliated and I confess I did not like that kind of an answer
-- but in the Providence of God, it served its purpose, for, when that Jewish
Missionary asked me to go and hear him explain that very same chapter I could
not but remember that scene in the tent and, of course, went, out of
curiosity to see if he had a better explanation to give than the one my
father had given. |
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A Glimpse of Christ. -- That was
the turning point. I went to hear him explain that marvelous prophetical
chapter and though I could not understand it all at that time, it sank into
my heart. He asked me to read the New Testament, and when he called my
attention to the wonders of the life of the Messiah and how every prophecy
was fulfilled in Jesus, I was soon convinced that the Son of Mary, the
crucified One, was the Christ of God, the Messiah of Israel, the Rejected One
of my people. Oh! how I wept when I came to the Crucifixion scene and read
those awful words: "His blood be on us and on our children." It
seemed to me that I had taken an active part in the murder of the Innocent
One and I realized for the first time the reason for the terrible history of
the Jews, the sufferings and persecutions they had gone through and even were
still enduring. It was not long after this that I realized I must cast in my
lot with Jesus and plead for forgiveness for the part I had in that great
crime of Calvary. |
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But if I
did this I knew the consequences, for I had heard my uncle condemn and curse
the Jews who had abandoned their faith. They were impostors, according to his
opinion, persons who had sold their souls for money. I knew that my lot would
be hard. I knew I would be driven away from his home where I had spent so
many happy days. |
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Struggling Against the Light.
-- I struggled hard for nearly three months, against my own convictions and
against the light. My soul yearned for a complete surrender to Him who died
for me but who, as risen Lord, was seated at the right hand of the Father,
patiently waiting to receive and forgive. My head reasoned but my heart
trembled for the future. I could not eat nor sleep, and my uncle was
contemplating sending me to some health resort, as I was beginning to look
very haggard. Personally, I was fearing that I would lose complete control of
myself or even my mind. I was in a dreadful dilemma. |
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Finally
the Lord had pity on me and gave me peace. It happened this way: As was my
custom I went to the |
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Decision and Happiness. -- I went
to my room and paced the floor until past |
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Testifying. -- Early
next morning, it was Sunday morning, I appeared in due time for breakfast. My
uncle was at the table and no doubt noticed my happy and satisfied look. As I
sat down to the table he asked me why I looked so happy and I told him
frankly: |
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"Uncle,
for the last three months I have been going through a great struggle." I
told him of my going to the |
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"Last
night I decided and have accepted Jesus as my Saviour and from now on, Uncle,
I want you to know that I too am a Christian." |
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It would
be difficult to describe how the good man received this bit of information.
He left the table unable to touch the food, pale and sad as if his heart
would break. I, however, was able to eat and enjoyed my breakfast as I had
not done for a long time. |
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Going into
the store I found my uncle pacing the floor furiously angry. I went into the
office and, when I had an opportunity, I related to the senior bookkeeper my
happy experience of the previous night. He cautioned me not to tell it to my
uncle if I wanted to keep my place. Imagine his surprise when I informed him
that my uncle was the first person to whom I had given the information. Later
in the day the bookkeeper informed me that my uncle had told him, that as
long as I was not baptized it did not matter. |
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"These
boys," he had said, "one day believe one thing and the next day
another. These notions will soon disappear and as long as he does not submit
to that rite and publicly deny the faith of his fathers, it does not
matter." The Jews think that Jewish candidates for baptism pass through
a special ceremony when they are forced to curse their God and the religion
of their Fathers. |
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Profession of Faith. -- I then
and there determined to make my profession of faith and immediately spoke to
Mr. Wilkinson about it. After due inquiries we agreed to have it done at the
Wellclose Square Mission, in the East End of London, one Saturday afternoon.
I invited my uncle and a great many Jewish friends to be present. He came and
during the whole time did his utmost to get me out of the meeting. However, I
remained firm, and after hearing my testimony on behalf of Christ, he and his
group of friends walked out boisterously, slamming the door after them. After
that never-to-be-forgotten meeting, Mr. Wilkinson and the staff of
missionaries met in the Home of Inquiries, situated in the North of London,
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My heart,
however, was so full of joy and happiness that I did not notice the cold of
that October night. My tired body did not feel the hard stones as I walked
those streets the whole night, awaiting the arrival of the first day of my
new life. |
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Expelled From Home. -- Early
Monday morning, after walking all the night through the streets of |
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"What
do you wish, Sir?" he said. I told him, "Uncle, I have come to
work." |
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"Don't
call me Uncle any more," he exclaimed, "I do not know you any more and
you have absolutely nothing more to do here and the sooner you get out of
this place the better it will be for you." |
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"All
right," I said, "but I would like to go to my room and get my
clothes." |
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"You
have absolutely nothing here," he shouted at the top of his voice and
pushing me to the door shoved me out. |
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I expected
to be asked to resign from my work, but to be expelled like that, without a
piece of clothing except what I had on, was quite a surprise. It left me in bad
shape. I only had a few shillings in my pocket and with these I tried to
begin my new life. I felt sad, but in my heart I was happy for being
permitted to suffer for my faith in my Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. |
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The first
few days passed along smoothly. I made the pennies I had go a long way. I ate
as little as possible and slept in what is known as the thieves' kitchens
where for a few pennies one can get a clean bed. I tried to get work, but as
all my acquaintances were Jews, after I would tell them the reason why I lost
my job refused to give me work. When at last my limited funds gave out I had
a very trying time. I could have informed the missionaries about my trouble,
and they, no doubt, would have been glad to find some work for me; but I was
ashamed to do so, as I did not wish them to think that I was after their
money. Finally one of them noticed some difference in my appearance and
inquired as to my way of living and I informed him of my predicament. He
found me a place in the Home of Jewish Converts where I was accepted and
taught the art printing which has been of such great use to me in my work in |
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Learning a Trade. -- I
spent about three years in that home and due to the manager, Mr. McClure, a
godly Christian gentleman, who seemed to realize that my work would not be
that of setting up type, but something of much more value to the |
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A Godly Teacher. -- We had
excellent teachers. One of the best and most consecrated men of God was Mr.
J. Clancy, a retired officer of the English army who had seen service in |
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Street Preaching. -- Sunday
was always my best day, and was begun by attending a Men's Bible Class, under
the direction of a layman, Mr. Badenoch, of the Mildmay Mission. We were
fifty or more and had an excellent program prepared for the whole year,
studying some book of the New Testament. That was a real spiritual uplift,
which I experienced every Sunday morning before breakfast, and it was there
that I also received my first lesson in winning souls for my Master. This
Bible Class did not content itself with the study of the word of God, but
after breakfast we would meet again and go into the highways and by-ways of |
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Thrown Into a Dust Bin. -- During
one of those street meetings I almost met my |
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Excommunicated. -- It was
a year after I had been living my new and happy life, enjoying the fellowship
of Christian men and women and preparing myself for a life of more usefulness
to my Master and Lord, that one day, like a bolt of thunder from the clear
sky, I received a note from another uncle of mine, a brother of my father. He
had come to |
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I need not
tell here all the particulars of our meeting and how he made my heart yearn
for home as he gave all the news about everyone that I loved and from whom, I
had not heard since my conversion. |
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News from
mother and father and especially from my only sister, with whom I had spent
most of my time at grandmother's home in |
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"On
business," I said. "That is what you wrote me." |
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"Yes,"
he said, "I had some business to do, but my special business is to take you
back home." |
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"That
is great," I exclaimed, "and I am ready to go with you any time you
may wish to go." |
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"I
know," he replied, "that you are ready to go, but there is one
condition and that is that you leave your apostasy behind." |
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It was
then that my eyes were opened and I realized that my greatest trial was at
hand. Confused as it left me for a moment, with a clear and distinct note I
told him that such a thing was impossible, as I had given my heart to the
Lord Jesus, and to abandon my religion I would have to tear out my heart
also. He smiled sarcastically and informed me that he had full power from my
father to have me excommunicated, disinherited, disowned by the family and
considered as dead. The reason that it had not been done before was because
he himself had interceded for me, hoping to get in touch with me and have me
realize the consequences. I told him again that before accepting the Lord
Jesus as my Saviour I had struggled for three full months and had counted the
cost. I was prepared for everything and every loss and if it only depended on
me I was decided to leave all there and then. He gently pushed me out of the
door and told me to return a week after that and then give him my final
answer. |
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Oh, the horror
of that long, seemingly never-ending week! The devil tried his very best to
get a new hold on me. Due, no doubt, to my state of nervousness and sleepless
nights, everything seemed to go wrong. I fell out with some of my companions
in the home and one day, provoked to anger by one of the inmates, I broke a
chair over his head. The manager thought it best to expel me from the home.
No one knew of the great trial I was passing through except dear Mr. Clancy
and he asked the manager to overlook my fault. It was a terrible week of
trial and temptation and had it not been for the Lord Himself I would have
surely failed. What frightened me most was the terrible Jewish
excommunication. I remembered, how on my return to Russia from Germany, I
attended upon one such scene where a poor fellow was excommunicated for some
foolish little fault, I think it was for kissing his wife too soon after
childbirth (a thing forbidden by the Rabbis). It was a harrowing scene, and
the curses, as they were read out by the rabbi, made me shiver. My soul
revolted and I did not want to see it any more, much less be the protagonist
himself in such a ceremony. |
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Cursed and Disinherited. -- The
week ended and I went out fortified by the prayers of that man of God, Mr.
Clancy, ready to give my testimony concerning my Saviour and Lord. I found my
uncle, or rather both of my uncles, and several elderly Jews, whose flowing
white beards inspired great respect and attention. All received me gladly and
gave me a hearty welcome. We had a long talk about the greatness of the God
of Israel, of the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob. I was finally asked for my
decision and I gave it to them in a few very simple and plain statements. I
told them of my struggles before accepting Jesus as the Messiah. I gave them
my experience when I first went to hear the explanation of the Fifty-third
Chapter of Isaiah. I told them of my life and happiness since then and of my
desire to serve Him, my Saviour and Lord, even as a printer, helping to
spread the knowledge of Him whom to know is life eternal. Sadness came upon
all their faces, especially upon those of my uncles. One of the elderly Jews,
with tears in his eyes, informed me of the consequences, and of his awful
duty to proceed with my excommunication and disinheritance. I told him that I
had counted the cost, that I was ready to go to the limit and if necessary
give my life for the Messiah. |
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He then
began to read the excommunication ceremony: "Cursed be he by day, cursed
by night; cursed when standing and cursed when lying down; cursed when eating
and cursed when drinking"; and so on for a long time. |
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At first
my heart fell within me and it seemed to me as if the ground upon which I
stood opened and that I was being hurled into a bottomless pit. Oh, the horror
of that moment! Thank God it was only a moment! Then my heart cried unto my
Lord and it seemed to me as if I saw Him upon the Cross with outstretched
arms and over the Cross I saw written in plain and shining letters that
wonderful text: |
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"HE REDEEMED
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I heard
the good old man finish the reading of those curses. Tears were streaming
down the faces of my uncles and they wept as if their hearts would break, but
my own soul was filled with a peace that passeth all understanding. I felt
myself filled with a joy unspeakable and full of glory. When the good man had
finished reading those curses and he gave me to understand that from that
moment on I was an outcast and dead to the family, I merely said in answer:
"Gentlemen, is that all?" They nodded their heads in assent. I then
said, "Well, good-bye, and the Lord have mercy upon your souls." |
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I left
that room with my heart rejoicing. I was so happy that I did not know what I
was doing. I walked into the arms of a big policeman and he asked if I was
drunk and I told him, "No, sir, but I am very happy!" |
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One other
great joy to me was the Sunday School and work among the little children. It
was at one of these meetings that my attention was called to the need of
preparation for better service. I was having two weeks' vacation at the
seashore in |
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Training for Work. -- After
a few months of trial I was sent to |
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First Attempts in Service.
-- During my three years' stay at the |
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Most of my
time was given to work among the Jews, and during the holidays I was employed
by the Mildmay Mission to the Jews as visitor and Bible distributor. I cannot
narrate all that happened to me during those days; however, I give one or two
incidents which will show the difficulties of working among the Jews. |
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Beaten by White-Slavers. -- On one
of my furloughs I was employed for the purpose of visiting the incoming boats
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As a rule,
the white-slavers consigned the girls, either married or to be married, to
some rascal in |
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Thrown Down a Spiral Stair-Case.
-- At another time, I was visiting the Jewish district with a young Jewish
convert, who was at the same College preparing himself for work as a medical
missionary, a Mr. Davidson by name. We were accosted by a young Jewish fellow
who told us that at a certain building on the fifth floor, was a shoe factory
where all employees were Jews and where the subject of Christianity was being
discussed daily. He asked us to visit the place and bring New Testaments, as
they were very anxious to possess a copy. He spoke so earnestly that we did
not suspect the trap that had been set for us. When we appeared there later
in the afternoon, we knocked at the first door and as soon as they recognized
us they asked us to go to the next door. When we reached the next door, all
men working in the first room came out with their implements of work,
hammers, stones, and knives and attacked us from behind, barring the way to
the stair-case, the only way of escape, while those of the second room
attached us in the front. As soon as I discovered the situation my first
thought was to save Davidson, who was a frail, weak young fellow. Covering
him with my body, I pushed him to the stairs and made him run down telling
him to call the police. Meanwhile the group of Jews, numbering about thirty
or forty, after belabouring me the best they knew how with their hammers and
lasts, got hold of my limbs and turning me head downwards placed me in the
middle of the spiral stair-case and deliberately dropped me down with the
intention, of course, of having me break my neck. Fortunately I had had
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From: A
Wandering Jew in Brazil: An Autogiography of Solomon L. Ginsburg |
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