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How to
find God, was, for Shulamit Galor the biggest question of all. She tried
Jewish religion, the Chabad
movement, the mysticism of the Kabbala,
yoga and Hinduism. She even became a Quaker! No answer. No hope. No God. She
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I was born
in Tel Aviv in 1954 and grew up in a family that was not orthodox, but religious
in a way. We were keeping all the mitzwoth,
the laws and the Torah, and were very strict in keeping the shabbat and the
holy days. My father used to go to the synagogue. We as children had to
fulfil all these things also, but whenever I asked my parents, ‘Why can’t I
do my homework on shabbat?’ they said, ‘Because writing is also work and you
are not supposed to work on shabbat.’ I used to get very angry at things like
this. ‘Why cannot I go and play with my friends on shabbat?’ ‘No you cannot go.
You have to stick to the house.’ I felt very much restricted by these laws,
but as a child my father talked to me a lot about God and so I started
believing in God and prayed to him, but I hated the synagogue. Each time I
went there with my father I saw all these people and yet you could see that
they were not at all interested in God. They would stand outside the
synagogue and talk with someone else about money and business. I felt the
hypocrisy and hated it. My elder sister, one elder brother and one younger
sister, we all hated the holidays, and felt it like a burden. My mother was
not very affectionate to me. My elder sister was a little bit retarded and
all the attention went to her and we were left out. So we all felt very
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Becoming a
teenager I really decided to rebel against this religion, my parents and
everything. I was probably very bitter because there was not enough love for
me. So I became a Hindu. I was very much attracted to |
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My hair
was like a big afro and I used to stick flowers in it. My jeans were very
torn too. I became a sort of a hippie and a Hindu together. Every morning at |
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Then after
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It lasted
only half a year. We were very religious, very orthodox. I stopped wearing
jeans and I started to wear long dresses. I was not a hippie any more, but
was very strict in keeping the shabbat. My parents did not like it at all.
They thought I was crazy. I left all my Hindu stuff and was a religious Jew.
My boyfriend is still like this today. He is still a chabadnik. For me a lot of questions came up but whenever I
approached different rabbis and asked these questions, the answers were never
satisfactory. It had to do with different explanations about the Bible. Why
Judaism emphasises the Gemarah and
all these other books so much instead of the Torah. Nobody could give me an answer that satisfied me. I just
felt again, that all this keeping of the shabbat and strictly keeping the Mitzwoth, was a burden to me. So I
decided to stop it and went back to Hinduism. |
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After that
I was called to the army and served in the Nachal with young people, a kind of settlers, that start
establishments on the borders of |
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But then
the 1973 war broke out, the Yom Kippur
war. My commander and some of my other friends were killed. This really
affected me very much and I became very depressed. I could hardly sleep. I
started asking questions like; ‘Where is God?’ He brings the Jews to |
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As soon as
I finished my army service, I met a young man who was also very deep into
yoga and meditation and we started to become very close. We wanted to go to |
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Then the
rabbis told me to shave off my hair and wear a wig, because I was married
now. So I said, ‘I don’t see any reason and don’t see it in the Torah. Where is it written in the Torah?’ This rabbi started mumbling
things, ‘Ah you don’t understand.’ And, ‘One day you will understand.’ So I
got very deep into Judaism because of my questions. I met this rabbi in Mea Shearim, the ultra-orthodox
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So after
these few months we told him we were very much disappointed. All these
teachings were very nice. They please your soul and your mind, but they did
not help us to find God. So he said, ‘Now the time has come that I teach you
a kabbalistic meditation and then you will find the light.’ We had a meeting
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I had read
the New Testament, where Jesus said, ‘By the fruit you know the tree. If you
see a good fruit, then the tree must be good.’ So whenever I wanted to see a
teacher, I immediately wanted to find out where the fruit was. How can a
teacher say that he is so great and outside his gate lepers are lying. They
had no fingers and no noses and were dying from hunger and he would give them
nothing. He charged dollars from the foreigners and rupees from his own
followers, but he would not give anything to the poor. These fruits were very
bitter. Why should I follow such a teacher? I was very sensitive spiritually
and because of that got into trouble. I could sense from the very first
moment if a teacher was a fake or a real one. About three times these
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There was
one Zen teacher, and when we walked
into his class I looked at him and knew he was fake. He did not know me, but
suddenly in the middle of the sitting, he looked at me and said, ‘You go out,
and don’t ever come to my class again.’ This happened with two more teachers.
They threw me out and said, ‘Go immediately from this compound, and don’t you
ever come back.’ They would send somebody to see that I was really leaving. I
was some kind of a threat to them. |
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Yogis
would perform miracles. I have seen a lot of miracles in India, but even
after seeing that, I felt as empty as before. God was not here. We visited
the whole area of the Himalayas and the north of India and even met some
yogis sitting completely naked in the snow. While we were freezing, they were
sitting there naked, in such a trance that they didn’t feel anything. We
talked to them and again whatever they had to say about God, it was nothing.
We had been to Darmsala, the
Tibetan centre, where the Dalai Lama
was living. There were Jewish men and woman from America who became Buddhist
nuns and monks. We met the tutors of the Dalai Lama, very old people with
long beards to the floor. These two tutors were the ones who taught the Dalai
Lama all his wisdom. They looked at us and said, ‘What do you want?’ We said,
‘We have come to find God.’ ‘Do you believe in Tibetan Buddism?’ We said,
‘No, we don’t know what it is.’ They said, ‘You stay here and study with us.’ |
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They also
said, ‘We’d like to tell you your future. Do you mind if we throw the dice for you?’ We said,
‘Okay.’ They threw the dice and said to us, ‘You will not find what you want
in India. You will leave India because of a very great sickness that will
happen to your husband.’ We started to study Tibetan Buddhism with them, but
after some days they threw us out. We had to pray to some statue, according
to their instructions. I was talking there to those Jewish people and said,
‘Look, how can we pray to a statue? We grew up in the Torah, saying that we should not bow down to a statue and that is
what we are doing here. Are we crazy?’ They said, ‘You are right.’ And it was
told what I had said. Next day the tutors said, ‘You have to leave this
village and will no longer study here and you are a very bad person.’ |
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After two
years, we came to the south of India and reached a city called Bangalore.
There my husband became very sick. He was really suffering and very
disappointed in the search. There was no hope for us. In two years we did not
find anyone. I remember going to sleep that night and I was so depressed. I
said, ‘I’ll kill myself. The time has come.’ That night I woke up in the
middle of the night from a dream. I knew in my heart that this dream was true
and it was going to happen. I saw a man wearing an orange cloth and he was coming
out of a little hut, with a book in his hand. His face was western. He was
not looking like an Indian man. So I woke up and thought, ‘This is it. We are
going to meet this man and he will teach us the way to God.’ I called my
husband. He was in a deep sleep. I said, ‘Wake up, we must find him.’ He
said, ‘Are you crazy? Go to sleep. It is just a dream.’ I said, ‘No, no, no.
We are going to seek him.’ Within two weeks I had another dream and saw the
same person again. Again I told my husband. He said, ‘What are you talking
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My husband
got better again. We asked people, ‘Where is a teacher or a yogi?’ They told
us about a big temple for Krishna.
One Sunday we went there. We walked inside this big place. There was a lecture
going on in English. As soon as we walked in, I saw this person from my
dreams. He was giving the lecture! This man had been in a hut for twenty
years. He had never come out, and never given a lesson. This was his first
time. Other monks pleaded with him to give this lecture, because the one who
was supposed to give the lecture was very sick. They said, ‘Please, you must
talk this Sunday because everybody is coming, and we don’t have a lecturer.
You must give it.’ This was the first time in twenty years he talked to
anyone. Nobody had published anything from this man. His photo was never seen
anywhere. So I could not have seen his face somewhere before. I had never
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We
listened to this whole lecture, waiting for it to end. Then we got to him,
greeted him and said, ‘Look we are from Israel and we want you to teach us
the way to God.’ He was shocked and said, ‘But I haven’t found God myself! I
have been seeking God for twenty years. What do you want from me? I am sorry.
I have nothing to teach you.’ We went home and said, ‘Now we can kill
ourselves. We found the one of my dream, and he is not willing to teach us,
what shall we do?’ Then I wrote him a letter and I told him about my dream,
and said, ‘You’re the one. For you we came to India. What you learned in
these twenty years in a hut, you have to teach us.’ So he sent word back to
the hotel, ‘Come and meet me.’ We got to his hut in a monastery. It was
surrounded by beautiful roses that he raised himself. He was tall, white
skinned, and his face was quite European. He did not look like an Indian at
all. He was a Brahman, of course,
and some of the Brahmans have European features. At that time he was forty
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He came
out of the hut and sat with us on the terrace. He said, ‘Look, I haven’t
found God. Every night I go to sleep crying. My pillow is wet with tears when
I wake up. I cry, ‘Where are you God? What do you want from me?’ I said, ‘I
came to you, because of this dream.’ Then he said, ‘What do you think about
the Bible?’ I answered, ‘Forget it.’ I told him that I had been into this,
and was in the Chabad and the Kabbala and was very advanced in yoga,
the same as my husband, and we were not interested in the Bible. So he said,
‘Look, you cannot be a Hindu and what you are doing is wrong. You will never
find God in Hinduism. If you go on with your Hindu practices you will never
find God.’ I said, ‘Why?’ He said, ‘You are a Jew, you cannot escape from
this. You are trying to run away from your karma.’ Karma means everybody was born into this world to perform
something unique. ‘Why are you trying to escape Judaism? You cannot. You will
never reach God through Hinduism. You have to return to the Bible.’ I said,
‘Forget it. No way. I have not come to India to hear this from you.’ And then
he said, ‘What do you think about Jesus?’ I said, ‘Oh no!’ Then he said, ‘You
know what, wait for me’ and he went into his hut and he came out with a book.
That was the scene I had seen in my first dream. He came out of his hut with
a book. He said, ‘Take this book, read it at home and you come back to me in
two weeks.’ This book was about the faith in Jesus. We said, ‘Wow! We have
tried every way, even Zen Bhuddism and Tibetan Buddhism and we never really
tried Jesus. Maybe it will help.’ |
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We started
praying in the name of Jesus. I remember, we prayed together, ‘The only thing
we want is a Hebrew New Testament.’ So we went to the Bible Society in
Bangalore. It is a big, very European city, and they had so many translations,
even in the Korean language, but nothing in Hebrew. So we just prayed and
said to God, ‘We really ask you for a Hebrew New Testament.’ We also
remembered these Berger brothers. We wrote to them and asked for it. Twenty
years ago sending a letter to Israel and receiving something back in India
would take six weeks to two months. So we sent a note that we wanted one New
Testament in Hebrew and we asked for a very specific translation, which is
not so easy to find. It is very old, but that is the one that we like. |
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So we went
back to see the monk and we told him that we were starting to pray in the
name of Jesus, and although God had not answered yet, we just felt that it
might be a good way for us. You know what he said? This is the only way for the
two of you. If you truly want to be happy and find God, you have to follow
Jesus. That is your only way.’ I asked him, ‘Why don’t you follow Jesus?’ He
said, ‘Because I am a follower of Krishna, because I am a Hindu. But all the
ways lead to God and perhaps someday we will meet in heaven. You go on
praying to Jesus and report to me every two weeks what is happening to you.’
There was a good and a bad side to this man, but obviously I became a
believer through him - a Hindu who did not believe in Jesus. |
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Then the
first miracle happened to us and because of this, I became a believer. Just
ten days after sending our letter to Israel, a parcel came from the Berger
brothers. We did not send it by express, and neither had they. Who brought us
this? It must have been the angel of God! They speeded it up. Normally this
was impossible. I have lived in India for four years and have been back many
times since then, but a letter always takes longer than that. In those days
there were not even direct flights! It was not possible at all! Not only
that, if you received a parcel from a different country, it usually didn’t
reach you, because they opened it and took what was inside. This parcel was
not opened. It was wonderfully guarded by the angel of God. I saw this and said,
‘There is a God and he is really answering prayers.’ |
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So from
that day on we started to read the New Testament. All this hatred I had for
Jesus went away. As a child I was told that Jesus is equal to Hitler, and I
hated him. Being with the Jesus freaks for a time, I read the New Testament
and said it was nice, but I still hated Yeshua a lot. There in the south of
India, through praying and reading the New Testament I started loving Jesus
more and more and said he was so great. Although I could not see at that time
that he was my Messiah. |
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The
problem with this Hindu man was that he never told us that Jesus was the only
way. He said there are many ways. Because he was the one to lead us to Jesus,
we believed in what he said. Only later I saw the contradiction. Jesus said,
‘I am the only way.’ This man said, ‘All the ways are good.’ Either Jesus is
a liar or this man is a liar. So I had to make up my mind. Who is Jesus? Is
he really the Messiah? |
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We got
very much involved in the work for poor people. We were disciples of Mahatma
Ghandi and thought that we had so much money we should give this money to the
poor and try to help them. So we started building a house in a small village
in a very poor area for us to live in, establish a clinic there and so help
the very poor people. We put a lot of money in this, and we told them that
this is the way we are serving God, because we are true believers. But
because it was such a horrible area my husband became very sick with malaria.
After these four years we had to leave India. |
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We did not
know where to go. Not to Israel. So we went to England, because we had some Quaker friends there. They had invited
us and said, ‘You only have to pay for the flight ticket and all the rest is on
us.’ We went there and became Quakers. This society started some four hundred
years ago with John Fox. They were called Quakers, for when they gathered
together and the Holy Spirit came upon them, they would shake and quake. The
rest of the people called them Quakers. But John Fox really emphasised the
basic teaching of Jesus. He said, ‘All these churches are not necessary. Love
is necessary.’ He was very much hated and persecuted. So these Quakers became
a kind of a sect within Christianity. When I became a Quaker, they asked me,
‘Do you believe in Jesus?’ I said, ‘Yes, I believe in Jesus.’ |
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After
living in England for half a year, we returned at last to Israel. And in
Israel, we met the Bergers and other believers. I told them, ‘I am a believer
now.’ But they asked, ‘Do you believe that he is the Messiah?’ I said, ‘Well
I am not very sure about that,’ because I was still influenced by the monk
and what he taught us. They said, ‘You have to read and pray and God will
show you.’ One day I met a Jewish believer. She did not even know me. I said
to her, ‘I would like to know if Jesus is the Messiah.’ To my amazement she
said, ‘There is a man between you and God. Once you remove this man, you will
see everything.’ She did not know me and what she was talking about. It was
just a prophecy that came from her mouth. It was like a knife in my heart. I
knew she was right. This was the man in India with whom I had a strong
psychic relationship. He was in the Himalayas now, and I was in Israel and we
would communicate in dreams. Afterwards we would write to confirm it. I knew
I had to get rid of this relationship. It was very hard and it cost me a lot.
I sat there, cried and said to her, ‘What you are saying is so true. What
must I do?’ She said, ‘I don’t even know you, but I can pray for you.’ So we
sat down and prayed. I said, ‘Okay God, I am willing to remove this man from
my life. He is no longer my teacher. I don’t want this occult relationship
anymore. I know it is wrong. Please, God, show me what is the only way.’ The
moment I said this, it became so clear. Jesus is the Messiah who died for me.
No other way. Jesus gave me the answers to most of my questions concerning
the Bible. I understood that he came to fulfill the Torah. |
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When I
told my husband this, he could not accept it and was very angry. He said what
the man in India told us was true, all the ways lead to God. In the following
days, I had to go through all my life and my relationships with the gurus. I
had to renounce them and cleanse myself in prayer from these relationships.
It was a hard and not a very pleasant work to come free from all these occult
things. I had to tear up some pictures that I still had and say, ‘I only
follow Jesus and dedicate my life to him.’ That was good and I felt clean. |
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Then I
wanted to be baptised. My husband was very antagonistic and angry. He did not
want this to happen and said, ‘Then I will divorce you.’ But I cried so much
to the Lord, that he eventually allowed me to be baptised. One day he came to
me and said, ‘You want to be baptised, okay. But it must be by Arthur Katz,
only him.’ At that time, we lived in Tiberias. I told Arthur Katz, this is
the condition, do you think I should accept? He said, ‘Of course. Let the
angels be the witnesses.’ So Arthur and his wife, came to the |
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One of the
greatest things that God has done for me, is bringing me back to |
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I am very grateful
to God for everything that he has done in my life. He saved my life from
great dangers that I faced in |
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From:
Hoekendijk Ben, Twelve Jews discover
Messiah, New Wine Press, England 1997, pages 28-43 |